think i'm not going to blog for a quite a while cos my internet is running out. heck jetpack. ha.

had com train today, the guys got their numbers. hongsheng was no 1, shunjie 3, tinghui 5, wei song 4 and man ching 2. rocks. x) jiayous guys.

staff pearl ning was pissed with us cos we din study for fa. not that we din want to study, really. its just that we're like too busy to do anything. then like everyday i'm studying till 12 or 1. really tired in the morning. gort lots of unfinished work. learnt heart attack and angina pectoris today, was nice.

staff chee hoe was there too, training the guys. he's still as cheeky. ha. came to teach me and mian mian to splint nicely and neatly, and we did real well. muakkas. haha. like, so diao. he din even tie a reef knot. tied a normal one. ha.

history test was a killer. it was like everything was on chpt 4 when chpt 3 was the one i focused one. went around remebering stuff like tengku hussein and hell, it din come out. wtf. dun giv a damn.

tuition was oki, i was late again cos i tot i was early bud apparently i wasn't cos i din have a watch and i left my fone in mi house.

thats about it.

feeling really moody now. like some sort of hellish idiotic assy feeling. i carn help feeling that way. like, feel so pressurised and sick bcos of sj and schwork. so hard to manage. wished i had like, endless amounts of energy. bothered about some stuff.

damn. why must everything be so complicated.


why am i blogging in red? like duh. cos its... VALENTINE'S! whees.

received lots of presents today, was really glad. haha. thanks everyone. hui wen, mai angel, was really nice. super. fab. gave me this really HUGE plushie dog. man, i was so suprised. thanks a lot girl! i love you to bits! haha. its so big. this really cut white doggie with brown ears and a pink dress. nice. neat. i was stuffing it under my table, dan fandi would take it out whenever she could to fondle it. oh. yucks.

was lugging all the pressies home today, had trouble with the big dog. nice as it is, its big.was sitting in the mrt, looking so stupid. haha. alighted at tampines even worse. people were casting all sorts of looks. the jealous look, the envious look, the are-you-crazy look, the why-are-you-carrying-such-a-big-teddee-around look. oh. dan to aviod embarrassment i walked home, looking all clumsy and awkward and stupid. it was like, so ironic. everobody was carrying practically nothing. well except for some totes and bags. dan i'm walking around, with my hands wrapped around this HUGE dog. oh. dan when i was walking home, i saw this two boys..then there was this boi hu was pointing to my plushie..dan he was going " oh! nice teddy bear! she gort from her bf de!" like..hah. first, i have no bf. second, its a dog! not teddy bear.haha.

and yupsy. i din rebond my haire. i didn't. i merely went for hair treatment. like, this process where they freshen up your hair and make it nice and softer and straighter and shinier and stuff. dan they put this gel on my hair and pull my hair until damn painful to straighten it..only a bit. its costing only like, 20++ bucks so its nort rebonding.rebonding cost like, 200 bucks or sth? its like, cos my hair is kinda naturally quite straight. so yups, thats cleared. so stop asking me. yup. i'm not lying.


got this thing from kh when i was bored. heehee. thankies gurl.


DESCRIBE YOUR ...
[wallet] *- black ozozo wallet.
[shoes] *- so many.
[favourite shirt] *- this 2 piece top. black and white.
[piercing] *- one on rightm 2 on left
[hair]*- dark brown
[make up] *- none ! so young..
[something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months] *- valentines day. my birthday! woots.
[something that you are deathly afraid of?] *- cockroaches.i;m so scared i even spelled it wrongly. x)
[do you believe in love] *- yes. fairytales too.
[do you believe in forgiveness] *- yes
[favorite food?] *- candee.
[is there something you wish you could understandbetter] *- myself
[my father thinks i am] *- lazy and not neat
[my mother thinks i am] *- lazy, eats slowly. x)
[my siblings think i am] *- irrating at times.
[best qualities] *- friendly.
[worst qualities] *- i can be bitchy
[i get embarrassed when] *- things go real haywire.
[what makes me happy] *- mi friends.musicc.
[upsets me] *- when i get hurt.
[like to cook ] *- hell, no.
[you have a secret you have not shared withanyone] *- duhhs.
[last song you listened to] *- jay's jian dan ai.
[last person you've called] *- ermm. jen.
[last person that called you] *- jen. x)
[last person u sms] *- jennifer.
[last TV show you've watched] *- ytd's tian cai go go go
[last time u thought about suicide] *- that day.
[last time you drink] *- a second ago
[Do you like roller coasters] *- yes
[Do you have a crush on somebody] *- yes
[Have you ever lied to someone] *- yeah.
[Have you ever been in a fist fight] *- yupsy.
[Have you ever been arrested] *- nah.
[shampoo do you use] *- ginvera
[what do you notice first in a guy/girl] *- the face. like duh. you don't look at their legs first.
[makes you laugh the most] *- june.
[last time you were totally free] *- right now. and perhaps later.
[the story behind your email address] *- my horoscope. the stars and the moon.
bought a load of stuff today. like loads and loads. haha.

met with june at tam mrt at about 11, suprising we were wearing the same kinda tops. coolx. x) so coincidental. so nice. haha. but mine was a better combi. mine is black and white. hers is pink and white. in the festive cny mood ba. haha.

shopped almost till i dropped. haha. went to wallet shop, got june to buy for me this ozozo wallet costing 23 bucks! shuang. haha.

went to shop for the whole of tm..haha..took neox.. nice.. only in 1 of them i look like an ass. arrgh. monkey lohhs.

in the end shopped the whole of cs and tm, finally gort this bearie for june. 21 bucks. haha. so i kupped like, 2 bucks for her..heehee. she o me 4 bucks! wheets.

bought al the stuff for my angel and mortal, and cheryl and blah blah blah. bought for myself too. heehee. bought this really kawaii keychain! hoohoo.

went to lib later, june and i was luffing and luffing ans luffing.

dan she wanted me to pei her 4 mrt stops. -.- oh how lame.

had a fab day, had to thank june for this. x) love you gurl.

happy val.

wows. just went to friendster, everything theres so red and valentiny..x) love is in the air! whoots.so like, i'm blogging in red too.

had some crap celebration in school today for cny. like lames. AMAZING RACE apparently WASN't amazing at all. uhoh. some shit. the concert wasn't well off either. our class was like throwing these soft and spongy oranges around. ewws. yucks. imagine sonft and spongy oranges! ewws. dan pamela and i was eeking and eeking at fann wong singing the 'xin nian dao' song. EWWS!!! my gawd her voice is not fit for listening. to think she was my lil 5 year old idol. thats sick.

after celebration went home with yahui and qing yi and huifen. shunjie gort a bit lah. haha. alighted with yahui at kembangan, and then we went to cheers to eat some junk. after that toked about stuff and met shunjie reading this comic book thingy. had fun guessing whether the cashier was a bou or ger. okies. he was Flat, so must be boi rite? dan worse, he dun seem to have any adam apple. arrghs. so perts. finally proved that he was a guy by talking in this manly voice, unless he went to change his voice box...x)

shunjie was real swit, buying me this dummy eyore. haha. dumb dumb.

went to kalm's at cs to get pammie her vdae gift. bought this nice nice thing. cost me a hugeeeee bomb! ahhs. haha. hope she lyks it. bought this loads of cardies and envelopes for vdaes, and this pen plus a pair of earrings. wheets.

going to visit ms tay tml, may nort be going. haha. we'll see. i hope kh goes. haha.

we'll see.

- the land of tears is such a mysterious place nobody knows about it -

today nort going anywhere, so shuangx. stay at home all day and gamble. i'm not a gambler. yup. so dun ask police to catch me. *i'm innocent*

yesterday gambled wid my bro late night, at first he took about 2 dollars away form me, dan reduced to 1 cos i won them back. not fair... haha.

oh yeaps. thanks jen for ur fab gifty. hope you like mine. yups. bff kays.

now its june's turn to travel east to west and back t east again.. aiyoh.. so sad..feel 'sorry' for her...wahhahahahahah!

i think, sometimes people just don't understand. so what's the point of justifying whatever i think is right? sometimes i feel so lost. like some darn girl lost in the jungle and nobody's saving me from this complicated mess.

save.me.from.this.jungle.of.mess.


finally gort a new blogskin after long hours of searching and consultant from my partnie hammie. cute hor...so pinky..thanks juney! harhar.

i'm finally blogging! oh..

thats so lame rights.-fine-.

went to temple today morn. think i saw junting. think i din. think i did. arrgh. i dunno lah. it was kinda faraway.

so smoky in there..dan was sitting outside slacking..away from the smoke and all that.. haha.

later travelled all the way to boon lay! so far lohx...so not shuangx..hhaha but realli loh. so far i was like, planting my butt down there for 40 minutes and listening to mp3.

ate mac. forgot to add points! ARRRGH! when am i going to be able to exchange! waa~!

kupped my ma's fries. x)

yup. thinking for so much, i finally decided to like, forget about everything. act like nothing happened. okay. maybe nort. but i' definetely going to let go, cos i see no purpose in hating. yup. so i can say i dun hate anione now. none at all. jasmine. all those ppl. yup. peace. x)

wanna get lotsa angbao! gort a lot liao. haha.

`family warmth. `reunion dinner with family.

today's chinese new year eve! yay!

just had my reunion dinner steamboat wid my family, at first want to go seoul garden de, dan finally settled on home cos its the best. haha.

gort the first ang bao of the year a few days ago, from my uncle. haha. that was great.

school was sian today, gort a few lessons only, was wondering why we even had lessons. haha. after school met up with cheryl to go shopping. yup. we met qiaoyue also. haha. i liked her name. she like the way i pronounced words. lame. haha.

went to ntuc in tm, kahui was asking me y never go cz. haha. she went with..kai li rite? yup.

went to hair cul. to cut mai haire. and mai fringe. i look horrible. =). haha. i dunno also. trying to get used to mai new look. haha.

i love mai haire. call me self-obsessed, i call it taking care of myself. whatever. which girl isn't concerned about her looks.

i love chinese new year. i love jen. heehee.

gort this gift from my angel today...haha... so nice. and a few val day gifts too! thanks jen, kal, bry, and andee. thanks so... i love that huge bear! wheets.

i love today.


` the sight of you irks me. `happy burfdae biyu! x)

hurt my calve today again, i seem to have this fate with falling down. ewws. is falling down really that nice? haha. was fooling around with sj ppl at the obs course, was playing ice and water. that was a so-long-ago game, i know. haha. was chasing hui wen when apparently i din see the bar for you to step at the monkey bar. thought it was like, without the bar. so i fell loh. stupid rite. now my legs hurt. awws.

anyway, if biyu is reading this, just wana wish her a happy birthday. all the best to ya okies. jiayous for everything. yup.

ha com train today, was mentored by staff qiaoping. she was kinda nice. yup. did only the dressing simple wound procedure today, she said she was impressed. i dunno leh. whatever lohs. its a good thing anyway.

yup. went with cher and huiwen to get some stuff from white sands mall. bought this necklace and a pressie for my mortal. whees.

i've done everything to the best of my ability, so why are you still doing this to me? theres a limit, and damn, i'm reaching it. i carn stand you anymore. wheres your forgive and forget? can't you do the same? i can't please everyone, cos nobody is perfect. accpet my flaws. please. i've already accepted yours. what more do you want? theres no sense. none at all.

` i refuse to live in your shadows. i wanna have a legacy of my own. believe. untie.

harhars. training was tiring...got pumped for uni inspection 5 times cos my boots nort polished enough. crap. crab. wu liao. haha. i din mind though. 5 times? its nothing. really. when you do 40 times at one shot during pt thats nort counted a lot, yes?

hahar. i must laugh again. hahar. today cheryl and i so lame*! we were like jinxing each other until one of us laughs or stops saying. i always win. wahaha. heehee.hoohoo.

today's pt was special and unique. we had to do 500 pumpings as a squad. meaning everybody, including the girls, had to be in the guy's pumping position. everyone will take turns doind as much pumpings as they can, with only one person doing at a time. so its like the first person does 20 pumpings, and can't take it anymore. then the next person changes into nursing pumping position and does as many pumpings as she can. yups. i was the fourth one, was glad i did about 30. haha. we had to hold in pumping position for like, 10 minutes plus plus leh. damn tiring lohs. mian mian and tiffany even teared! but never mind, such a small thing is easy bitsy for our squad. we gotta prove ourselves.man. we are already standard 2s.

i may sound so lame saying all this stuff, but unless you are in a uni grp, you wun understnad what i'm toking about. thinking back, i was glad i joined sjab. its not torture place. really. i remember when we first came into st john, we din even know each other.we couldn't remember our names. we weren't united. we dragged our shoes. we knoe nothing about footdrill. nothing about unity. nothing about teamwork. nothing about CIETS. we din care for each other. frigging hell, we hated sj.

and now, we know each other like brothers and sisters. we knoe each other's name like our own. we had our basics, we are united, we are one squad. we were no longer the 26 individuals who thought st john was some dumpster that CCA-less kids were sent to. we care for one another. we will always be one squad. we love st john. we are proud of being st john-ians. one for all, all for one.








`pissed, but gotten over it.

so much to do, so little time.

had pw today; our company named glitz. i'm the design manager, though at second thought i woul prefer e role of marketing manager. haha. no turning back.

at first i was a little pissed with felicia, but well, no hard feelings. i wan sorta pissed cos she was jus too stubborn, but later, i thought like, its fate, so i'm not going to blame anyone. yups. so thanks, felicia, for making me think better.thanks a mill.

so now i'm with fandi, xingdong, xiaotian, jason and xiaowei. glitz jiayous. x)

my ear hurts like mad.cos why? cos i just removed my earring - only after 30 hours when i'm supposed to remove it after 336 hours. pro hor. yups. i scared mr kiw catch mar. so i'm removing the orginial stud they pierced cos if not its darn obvious i'm wearing on another earhole. yups. i sprayed the antibiotics first dan removed the earring using pliers...so lame bud the thing was really too tight already..no choice...haha. dan the antibiotic thingy started flowing into the earhole and dan its darn painful, only hen i hurriedly poked an earstick inside..haha. pain...

so little time..so much to do fer pw.

gtgs man.

oh yahs...if YOU are reading this, i'll tell you sth. glad i've freed you.

oh yahs.

June: art club rocks! too long never play bball le hor. aiyoh. sho sad. ppl gort rashes then kena kicked out de. not bcos bball skills not good enuff.







`freaking happy. `shocked `speechless

another two off my wishy list. cool huh. haha. i'm feeling damn good now. get mai left ear pierced with another hole.. carn even feel anything now.like...nothing happened liddat.

just instant messaged someone on the net...so should i say was insant messaged? haha. left me speechless after he asked me the question. wierd. funny. i don't even knoe him. blunt. him. pleasantly suprised, but still..i don't know. confused. real confused.

why are you so impulsive? must you be so superficial? you made me so embarrassed.

i gort my mortal! wootsy! I LOVE YOU! haha, gort her a gift alreadi. writing to her soon! wondering who's my angel. whatever. if you are reading this...i love you too! haha. get me a gift quick!

went to pasar malam...saw this von dutch bag worth 26 bucks.. going to buy it! bought this tranparent case cover for only 3 bucks. cheap or whattt. whees.

tml gort spelling! reminds me of the spelling bee i used to have during kindegarten. hee.

but this case its chinese. i hate chinese. total dork at it.

still in a state of shock. shock shock shock.