yes GP came in the form of a glorious, prince charming and swept me off my feet :D My question: "being single is becoming unattractive" how far is this true of the Singaporean society?

hope my arguments, counter and counter-counter was good enough. similarly, i hope my AQ had enough depth .. ) :

from jm's balcony against the evening sky! prettyyyy azure blue skyyyy.


i went to the balcony and told them "I'm gonna jump off". Shermaine scrambled around quickly and scrawled this on my paper she was grinning so wide when she showed me this! and then she proceeded to write another "Faster Jump" on the next piece of paper. What a friend.


but i guess this picture isn't exactly untrue: it alludes to how i'd do my paper tomorrow.

M A T H S.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill.. You would lie in bed that night, close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely, because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

-Meredith Grey ( Grey's Anatomy )

Edited 26th September}

Kennard drew this for me online for my comp next wkend :D so cuteee!

Chopped off my locks on impulse today! I kept cringing whenever i heard marcus's scissors go snip snip on my hair which made him quite amused but I really quite sad to cut man! Afterall i already let it grow for super long now it's so short ): but then marcus say my hair very healthy very nice so i shall keep remembering that. HAHA omg i am so thin-skinned :D

I keep telling people eh must study hard ah! but i myself didn't study -.- distractions keep coming up at home! i think i'd have even more unrest at home for the next few nights because my dad and bro are keeping their eyes peeled on the F1 formula race & they keep making those funny sounds when the race car drifts across a bend.. O.0 shall not comment on those weird issues males have.

FOCUS! tomorrow i shall wake up at 9am to study I PROMISE. I PROMISE!!!

" At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I've watched while love commands you. "

OKAY NOW HORRORS:

apparently other countries who have published the twilight series worldwide created covers of their own, and they're shocking scary and defaming the prestige of the book! i feel so indignant! PREP YRSELF FOR THE PICS PLS.

twilight:



first one already act smart put bella's eyes red like FOR WHAT?! some stupid prophecy that she will turn vampire? and the second cover just looks like the cover of some horror girl-got-raped-and-killed novel right!

new moon:



you sld have seen my reaction when i saw the fox-wolfy like cover i think its quite hilarious.. those covers really suck?! and the second one is like some emo emo suicide book cover which is completely not befitting of the story. & EDWARD LOOKS LIKE SHIT HERE?! WALAU HE'S ROBERT PATTINSON MATERIAL OK!

there's none for eclipse and breaking dawn yet which is a relief, because i dont know how much more i can take. -.- SHIT COVERS. i bet like hell if i was meyer i would't allow them to publish those covers! then the carefully chosen original covers wouldn't be so significant anymore. like those twilight covers above is really WTF? they replaced the hands with the apple (which is sposed to mean forbidden fruit and allude to the idea of choice blah) to some funky girl which has no freaking meaning.

V PISSED OFF. (unnecessary, but still)



this is what pre-exam stress does to you: semi-psychos.


my motivation post-its are da best :D
I keep feeling like saying I'm gonna be on a hiatus but i don't think that's gonna happen: useless me.

i go, i go!




Math is exhausting but necessary all the same/, literature assignments are killler.

kailin hurt her hand so she can't play for her supposed slot next weekend, but then coach mentioned that there's no league next weekend so.. LUCKY ME! i thought i had to replace her at first.. and going for league despite promos doesn't seem like a very good idea.

i always want to drive the midnight train (haha) but without fail each time i feel super tired so i won't be doing work productively either even if i sit down at my desk. SIGH.

the schedule for post exam activities look very, very boring. hope the holidays come soon so I can start working ;D

I cannot wait for twilight to come out?! cannot wait to see the charm of edward (or rob pattison) for myself and I'm very, very confident he would be perfect for the role. Afterall, he was chosen after 5000 other auditions by other very eligible actors! The director says their (robert & kristen's) chemistry was so undeniable he HAD to cast robert as edward. Also, harry potter (and the half blood prince) the movie's screening date has been postponed further back resulting in no clash with twilight - PERFECTTT.

if you guys haven't read the online draft of midnight sun (twilight from edward's POV), go! stepheninemeyer.com. it's 264 pages if i can remember correctly, but as nice as it is it would have been better if i had a copy of twilight beside me to c/f when i read midnight sun! halfway through the draft she explains subtly why the book's called midnight sun. an excerpt from the book: My life was an unending, unchanging midnight . It must, by necessity, always be midnight for me. So how was it possible that the sun was rising now, in the middle of my midnight?

Damn beautiful. I hate stephenie meyer's brains?
oh, my god.

I owed to her to do the right thing now; I could no longer pretend that I was only in danger of loving this girl.

Afterall, it really didnt matter if i left, because bella could never see me the way I wished she would. Never see me as someone worthy of love.

Never.

Could a dead, frozen heart break? It felt like mine would.

"Edward," Bella said.

I froze, staring at her unopened eyes.

Had she woken, caught me here? She looked asleep, yet her voice had been so clear..

She sighed a quiet sigh, and then moved restlessly again, rolling to her side - still fast asleep and dreaming.

"Edward," she mumbled softly.

She was dreaming of me.

Could a dead, frozen heart beat again? It felt like mine was about to.

Fate is so hard to avoid, hor.

Exams are creeping up on me and either by accumulated good karma or my unnamed lucky star up in the heavens, i passed my math retest and spent quite a bit with mr chen to consult the other qns i didn't know how to solve. he's a really nice person, very patient & very willing to convince me if i still have doubts. Must pass maths & do him justice!

wanted to do a longer post but SIGH must go off to study. :D byebye folks!

Had vicpro training yesterday which was pretty much the same as normal trainings but with the CCHS people. Ranges from 11 year old Basil (he's so cute! i asked him "do you know you're a plant?") to one damn good sec 4 Ryan. Playing with them was definetely not as nerve-wrecking as i thought but pressurizing all the same 'cause they're all SO good. Even Basil! First game he got 99 and i got 133 (& he kept lamenting about how he was "cursed" and worse than me), then suddenly second game he got 152 and i only got 148. I shared a lane tgth with him and qingzhao so we were like "BBQ", and when i told him we're BBQ he was so amused he kept pointing at the screen and going HAHAHA. He's so cute so cute!

headed over to tampines safra to see the inter-club competition which was a total shock because we were the only youth group there. The rest are all those lao pok poks from other clubs & they're all sup experienced and good?!

which reminds me my comp's on the 5th (right smack on the weekend before my last paper) & i can almost anticipate how i'm gonna get trashed.

Twilight fans MARK YOUR CALENDARS - 18th DECEMBER is the release date of the much awaited movie! :D I will make sure i catch the veyr very first show WAHAHA.
fingers crossed i can really focus and start studying for the promos already. no more time to lose, and no time to spare thinking about other things. NO DISTRACTIONS! (besides moonlight resonance & an occasional read)

i hope my determination convinces you as much as it convinces me.

:D
Norwegian Recycling IS TOTALLY WICKED.

he's the reason why i'm still up at 1.27 in the morning (& i don't mind) downloading all 18 tracks he has - they're effing good. His mash-ups are the best i've seen, and his No one takes a bow (mashup feat. rihanna's take a bow, alicia keys's no one and sarah mclachlan's song for a winter's night) is my current fav. :D he's damn talented!

check out: no one takes a bow


Isn't it better when we were kids? every incident that induced sadness could be forgotten so easily - and we never had to keep thinking about how the heck we're gonna handle A, appease B, get over C, or screw D in the ultimate bitchy fashion.

At the end of the day, who walks away with more on their hands? i'm not sure if it's the one that wins, and for every battle valiantly fought (or not), somehow everyone loses something.

I don't know what i'm trying to get at, but it's late in the night and i'm getting crankier by the minute (haunted by the voices nagging at me to study), but i so, fucking hate weakness. that it secretly undermines everything we do, like how it clings no matter how hard anyone tries to shake it off.

Whoever said it wasn't painful?
But pain is that neccessary to catalyse our forgetting (mine & yours).
We all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love

got the best (or not?) combination of silly illnesses: a sorethroat & a spankingbad flu. stocked myself with all the necessities wherever I go: strepsils, dequadin lozenges, panadol flu max pills & trusty tissues - you can never really go wrong. almost talked myself hoarse with guowei just now then his mum offered me some pills for flu. after i downed the pills i just keep hiccupping! the feeling's horrible my hiccupps suck my ribs in so much each time i think it might just collapse.

my packet of twisties sit so invitingly on my bedside table i think i might just be tempted ... and add another few kilos to my already impressive weight.

p/s. edited 9th Sep, regrettably I have succumbed and eaten the twisties, but ironically my throat has gotten better - now it's the stupid flu that's bugging me.

p/p/s i don't even know why i'm online i must go study! much love & luck to everyone study hard!
Shame, is five-fingered.


Making this little green space private makes me feel as if I unconciously have excluded people out of my life - some important, some not so, others negligiable. I guess you can never have your cake and eat it, too. What is frighteningly scary is finding that I pass each day with apparent ease, and the old, what i thought was die-hard habits slowly becomes a seperate from me. It probably took a lot of convincing, but I'm so glad my body has become more and more attuned to the determination in my mind now.

i go. (:
(Faults are thick) Where love lies thin

Studying at jmin's last afternoon-night, and then stayover at mine. For a first time in a long while really got down to studying, but still got those open the book and snap! i'm sleepy~ feeling. But okay in the event where time is scarce and my wants = acing my subjs, i have to work hard even if opportunity cost means no (or minimal) sleep/play/shopping. A leaf with all our wishes, etc. Four of us let it set sail from jm's rooftop and it landed in.. the basketball court haha.

I haven't got much to blog about..

but let this be enough.

A fleeting moment, a grasp at your sleeve. Running footsteps, a childish giggle. Fingers entwined, one shot at forever.