hohoho.

i feel good today.

anyway, had art test today.

thanks all my frwens who waited for me!

the thing turned out pretty good but i din dodge or burn much.

a lil only.

who cares about art?

mr sng was in the foyer. being filmed by some ch u people.

went to find cheryl, when we left, the cam turned towards us.

like, i was so diaoded.

i tried avoiding it 3 times liao.

then when the cam guy saw me and cher walking he quickly turned the cam on us.

i was already walking halfway so i couldn't stop.

wth?

heard mr sng's gonna come to our class tml regarding the thefts.

i can't stand it anymore too.

i'm gonna wear dhs socks tml and be a guai kia.

pins a lotsa.

hohoho. :)

got ferried in cheryl's dadee car.

had to sit in the back cos he fetching cheryl's bro and his friends.

apparently he got like, 4 friends?

so the biggest sized guy [william] sat in the front and the rest SQUEEZED at the back.

hohoho.

they were squeezing like siaos and cheryl and i had space a plenty at the back..

haha.

so bad.

this guy got off at tampines first.

i was next.

alighted at chongzheng there.

khairul got out of the car first so i thought he was alighting too.

but instead it was bcos he was gentlemann and let we got out nicely.

and guess what?

he was standing there, waiting to crawl back into the car when i slammed the door of the car.

he gave me this huh look. and smiled. hohoho.

hohoho.

so stupid lor.





just finished my home econs.

having test tml.

ahh.

i hate recipe analysis.

wtf.
i changed my blogskin - again.

whatever.

i think its cute and moody.

just like how i am feeling right now.

cos he won't talk to me.
went for colours parade today.

president nathan was there.

after the whole thing went to eat dinner.

had a tough time deciding where to go for dinner.

a place where there was pizza hut.

decided on bedok finally.

ate.. splitza? or sth lidat.

yup.

had a great day

i love my squad.


the curry chicken was hot.

din eat it in the end.

the hotdogs were nice.

nicholas was damn ap.

i dun like him.

(''.)


woke up late today.

why?

cos instead of setting my hp alarm to 8 am, i set to 8 pm.

where got stupid?

hahas.

prepared stuff in a hurry.

went off.

cheryl was already there.

whee.

went to buy the tix.

went inside the cinema, the seats were difficult to get in and people were already sitting there.

so changed seats.

hohoho.

we missed like, probably 5 minutes of it.

hoho.

the show was nice.

jim carrey rocked.:)

the show was beautiful.

just showed the undying spirit of the family.

loved it.

cried at the end.

bought miss congeniality 2 combo.

got this hp holder.

its jelly pink! whoots.

after movie went to take neoprints.

nice man.

hohoho.

wanted to watch eye 10, cheryl din bring her atm card

shock man.

haha.

so got nothing to do then shopped.

then went to this fashion.

then we went siao!

we chose clothes for each other just to try on for fun.

i had 50 cents left, cher had like, 30 cents?

hohoho

then later we chose our own clothes to try on ourselves.

nice man.

had a great day.


`i daren't say that i love you.

yay.

i found out that in sj competiton, those who won us were sec 4s!

and they are still ncs!

no wonder they won us.

hey, they got 3 years of experience.

lalala.

tml no more recreational day.

postpone le.

yupps.

gonna watch a series of unfortunate events tml.


biyu sounds real upset. i hope she's okay.

really.

had tuition again today.

wore this nice disgusting yellow shirt.

showed this cartoon guy poking his finger through his nose and then poking his eyeball out.

ewws.

shilbe brought chocos. i brought gobstoppers.

i was practically biting through my sweets.

the chocos rocked. nice leh.

they're from korea.

saw a babee. kawaii!

:)

admired a black cat on the way.

hahas.


had combined sports meet today.

said we were sitting under the shade.

cock la.

we didn't loh. sweltered in the sun.

got sunburnt la. ate junkies all the way.

hope i don't get fatt. like thaddeus. hohoho. :)

after the whole thing was over went with jean to tampines mall.

yann chyng extra la. last minute back out.

aljunied and tampines very far meh

i travel liddat everyday okays.

hmmph.

aniwaes saw cheryl at 158 bus stop.

like. diaoded.

bought oreo ice blended. with jean.

got one girl.. cut the queue like siao..

felt like boxing her in the face.

and then her face goes red and she falls backwards.

while she holds her back and groans in pain, i shall luff at her.

hohoho.

i'm sick. **

anyway went to eat mac.

lata went to take neox.

both of us took without specs.

turned out really nice..

loved it.

looks so fake though.

hohoho. :)

shopped like siao.

then saw cheryl again!

where got sian.

aiyoh. :)

had tuition just now.

funfunandmorefun.

so funny.

leon was like: the thin tube which transports the ovules [or sth liddat] is the vagina!

hahahaha.

it was obviously the falliopian tube loh.

tuition's always full of laughter.

it's always that way.

i'm glad i'm in tuition.

its this thing you can relieve your stress..get a good laugh and learn at the same time.

i'm crapping.
tml will be the sports meet. yays.

today was.. okay.

thai students came over here.

kiw was darn scary. parading around looking at ppl's socks.

and mine was purely ankle. uh oh.

luckily ran off before he could catch me.

na ni na ni pu pu.

childish. :)

but like catching. like block catching.

relieving my childhood.

we'll chase each other under blocks and end up searching for each other on floors.

maths test was shity.

cos i din knoe how to do three quarters of it.

like hell.

art was cheaty.

june only used gradient.

like crap.

thaddeus is a fatso!

wuhahahaha.

oral ice blended rocks.
tml will be the sports meet. yays.

today was.. okay.

thai students came over here.

kiw was darn scary. parading around looking at ppl's socks.

and mine was purely ankle. uh oh.

luckily ran off before he could catch me.

na ni na ni pu pu.

childish. :)

but like catching. like block catching.

relieving my childhood.

we'll chase each other under blocks and end up searching for each other on floors.

maths test was shity.

cos i din knoe how to do three quarters of it.

like hell.

art was cheaty.

june only used gradient.

like crap.

thaddeus is a fatso!

wuhahahaha.

oral ice blended rocks.
today they presented the trophies to mr sng.

the announcer reported all the names.

apparently she couldn't pronounce my name properly.

whats wrong loh?

i feel like going to her and pinchingher nose.

"why can't you pronounce my name properly?"

"did you change your race hormones to malay or indian?"

hmmph.

had my oral presentation today.

our class is so perverted.:)

music class was so slack. went to play games and look at astrology.

changed my keyring. its nice.

thinkin` of him all day. how long can it last?

:x

can't wait for sports day.

can't wait for recreational day in sj.

i need sth to perk myself up.
slept in class today for acc.

got caught. :)

wuffles.

grabbed a lil sleep. better than nothing.

tml i'll be the first one to do oral presentation.

uhoh.

got a huge huge tummyache in class today. hmph.

i'm against tummyaches.yikes.

they din report sj's winnings.

i think i know why.

trying to finish all my hommiework.

ohnos.

`wanna hold your hand a lil longer. a lil more.

we won 2nd for comp. so we achieved our target.

yays for that. :)

but our big nc got 3rd!

boos to that. :(

first aid was.. okay. we got highest score for that.. i'm so damn happy. i did cpr. lost my first kiss. oops. :) got face shield so not counted. got lotsa green lights. yay. yahui rocked. cher was doing jaw thrust all the time. we rocked.

home nursing was a total flop lah. got 3rd highest score for it. got case style la. pleaae loh. we only tried it once. the judge was nice. did tpr with oral med.

footdrill.. was okay. yups. our sqmates cheered for us like siao la. haha. sir said our footdrill was well done! yay. we got 2nd highest for drill.

ac also got 2nd! then our seniors all got first. yays.:)

except for our sec3s. feel so sad for them. they were crying and crying.

cheer ups.

went to kfc for squad dinner. :)

mentors were there too.

chee hoe asked me if jeng shun was wad rank

i said lance coporal.

oops. major mistake.

hes coporal. got promoted.

but i cldn't remember loh.

crap.

i love my team. my mentors. my sq. ac2.yays. i also love the sec3s.

`held his handdd ` lalalalala.





put an '*' next to what u haveaccomplished
(*)snuck out of the house
( )gotten lost in your city
( )seen a shooting star
( )had a serious surgery
( )gone out in public in your pajamas
( )kissed a stranger
( )hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( )been arrested
( ) done drugs
(*)Had alcohol
( )laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(*)pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(*)swore at your parents (but not to their faces)
(*)been in love
(*) been close to love
(*)been to a casino
( )been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high (natural highs)
( ) skinny-dipped
( )skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( )saw a therapist
( ) played spin the bottle
(*)gotten stitches
( )drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour-- or water
(*) bitten someone
( ) been to Disneyland
(*) gotten the chicken pox
(*)kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( )been to Japan
(*) ridden in a taxi
( )shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(*) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(*) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
(*) been married (:
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(*) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(*) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(*) purposely hurt yourself
( ) taken painkillers
(*) miss someone right now
( ) SUCKED COW'S EYE BALL
( ) kick a poor guy in the nuts
i'm having my comp on sunday.

i'm damn scared, believe it or nort.

we gort nine competitiors.

i'm damn scared we will flop cos we are nort good enough.

anyhow, i love my mentors.

i love my team, they are so great. my pillar of support.

i love my squadmates for being there.

pearl ning. qiao ping. yahui. cheryl. mian mian. my squad.

:)

`muakkas.



i haven't felt this in a long time.

my face on fire.

my heart beating so fast.

my longing.

but it's so unrealistic. too much so.

maybe all this was just on my wishful thinking.

how can i think so?

you may already have your other half.

but the feeling i felt yesterday.

was incredible.

i can't stop thinking about you.

but you would never want me.

i'm just another girl.




i haven't felt this in a long time.

my face on fire.

my heart beating so fast.

my longing.

but it's so unrealistic. too much so.

maybe all this was just on my wishful thinking.

how can i think so?

you may already have your other half.

but the feeling i felt yesterday.

was incredible.

i can't stop thinking about you.

but you would never want me.

i'm just another girl.




had comp train again today.

footdrill was tiring. i got no breath le. :)

first aid..

so diao-ded. keep doing cpr. forgot everything.

comp's this sunday!

oh no mann.

i scared lehhs.

home nursing was okay. we did pretty fine.

muackkas all my mentors. my team.
had comp train again today.

total flop.

left for debate workshop at 10. was kinda nice. was involved in the 'sports cca grp of uniform grp better' was the opposition. so on the uniform grp side. was kinda coincidental cos the those ppl in the sports side, their cca all sports.then our grp got 10 ppl, all were uni grp except for 2, fandi and yann chyng.

we won. :)

first aid was kinda sucky.

i was doing CPR most of the time. and it was hard to do cos i tried to blow and blow but the light wun light up. and then my location was always wrong. then when maam teach me she was treating me as if i was like a kid. like scold me for being stupid. i was kinda demoralised. i'm emotional can.

then later my mouth bled. okays. not so disgusting. only this spot on my gums. gort blood . then mdm qp tot i was like do until my mouth bled.

but it wasn't easy . the dummy was afterall so damn stiff and i felt so .. i dunno. like very stressed. they kept pointing towards the fact that i was not good enough.. i almost cried. well, almost. i just keep thinking i'm useless.

but i'm not giving up.

definetely.

i'm going to keep trying.

try till i get it.

i'm gonna prove myself.

may that day come.

it will.
got my blogskin changed. tired of looking. i must have browsed thru at least about like, 200. yeahs. siann.

gort comp training tml. siann. 9 hours.

feeling like i'm a ruthless killer. rob people of their hopes.

its not like i wanna do it. its just that i can't do what you want me to do for you.

i'm sorry.

something is damn wrong with my blog loh.

debug debug. debug here and there. crap.

i hate you.

gotta look for a new blogskinn.
today went back to school for comp train.

it was guides day, or something close to that. yup.

played volleyball after training. vball rocks. i can't serve properly .. last min will bounce off the net. crap.

training was .. bad. din memorise everything properly. our sqdmates wrote stuff for us. thank yous. i love you guys.

went to mac. the server was cute mann. heex. :)

they even wanted to play inside the mac playground. crap. but we're 13 so can't play. only 12. siann.

yeahyeah.

`now who's the one with that damn problem? you.


today was okay. very very tired only. :)

gonna go skating nex week. yeas. x)

had a cheering session today. yup. shouted myself hoarse.

step you flat like a gingerbread. :)

gort my class tee. loved it. the colour was something nice. orenge. :) and the white went well. although i din know why they wanted to put that thing. geex. the size wasn't what i expected. everbody got a size smaller than what they wanted. so my tee now is like, fitting. uh oh. wait i grow fat then cannot wear le. :)

had com train today. went to watch guys do case. it wasn't very good loh .. shunjie kept sliding around. then never wear gloves. never utilse passers by. never remove shield. never keep belongings. never cross report. never do body check up. never use watch. :)

gawd i'm sounding mean. but yup. i have a feeling we did the same during case too. just that we couldn't see when we are the ones doing the case.

there has been cases of theft in our class. thats wud kiw was toking abt tis morning. we have a feeling its HER but she doesn't admit. how could he or she be so mean.

got schoool magazine. its about time we got it. :)


went to mr chong's funeral taday. yups.

was kinda sad. like, yeah. its hard to imagine. i still remeber him standing up, teaching us chinese and now, he's lying in a coffin. sad. ain`t it.

everyone except geraldine and yh went. yup. stephanie came later. mrs chong looked so.. fragile. so skinny and deprived. i feel so sorry for her.

i feel so .. reflective now. knowing how blessed i am. knowing that i am loved and i'm loving. :)


` i'm just indulging in your love. <3


finally. still, thanks to kahui. i love you girl. :) found out what was wrong wid my blog. yays.

history was downright boring. mrs wong was scolding us like we had 0 / 100 for our test. we din loh. she said we always waste time and never prepare our work properly. wth loh.

our singing was darn sucky. ew ew ew. :) we have to re sing again tomorrow. crap. i don't care if i'm going to fail! hmmph.

i'm never gonna finish my oral presentation. never going to finish anything. this is soooo crap.

i can't focus. bogged with too many problems. things always go wrong. at the wrong time.

he's left us. never to return. maybe the war was too tough a one for him to fight. too tough. but anyhow, god will always bless you. blessed be. :(

i thought you said you just played a joke on me. ain't that what you said? and now you say its for real again. you want me to giv you an answer. how am i supposed to?

please give up.
please go away.
please.
get out of my life.
i'm begging you.



Sunday, 6th March, 2005

went to tampines library to do history project today. met up wid fandi at tampines interchange. she said i looked so different from skool. really mar. she said i look more lady. very lady. very mature. whatevers. :)

then chiahau called fandi to say that they were at tm's mac...arrgh. dan we had to walk there. :)

we had lunch at mac. all of us ate mc chicken except fandi, who stoopidly ate wad savoury tempura chicken meal or something liddat. dumb dumb. :) she said it was horrible. sho sad.

we were goofing around with our food, and eventually dropped french fries into elvis's drink when he went to toilet. funnys.

we asked the lady for 2 happy meal balloonys. so i was walking around with a pink balloon, fandi with a yellow one. childish or what. <3

went to lib, saw jiahui there. found this benches at the windows and sat there. this lil birdie came to shit in front of my window. eews. :)

saw fudi and his fren later alighting from a taxi. yup. used a frigging long time to do project. change the song lyrics till i ran out of ideas. crap. haha.

after the lib close at 5 all of us went to challenger cos fandi wanted to buy printer ink. chia hau and elvis was complaining that girls shop too much. lames.

went to chingay pasar malam shop until i wanna drop. heex.

still have da ballony.

love my other half.:)

ahh. had mock com today.

wore our uni for the first time, was kinda stupid cos our barray was only half seasoned. :) yup. so we were looking like something between a sailor and a st john memeber for the barry.

had uni inspection, the officer was chee hoe. arrgh. :)

pretty much flunked both first aid and home nursing. footdrill was not much better and yahui forgot to do belok. ayes. she rock.

after mock com [ we pon routine training today. -shuang- ] we had lunch. typical chicken rice or wanton noodles. ayes. :) the chicken rice tasted was all yums.

we had agm, sat in the hall for a frigging long time. talk about our corp and stuff.

had a promotion ceremony! i'm a lance coporal! heex. thats so shuang. can't help smiling. :) people can greet me le. yays. only samuel form our squad din get promoted. felt sorry for him.but it was truly his own fault.

had com evaluation. gonna step up training. i wanna win something. like top 3 or something. i don't want all our efforts to go down the toilet bowl. i will work harder.

i sound like boxer. :) "my personal motto!" heex.

but i really wanna win at least top 3 la. really. yups.

i hope. *cross fingers*



`beneath all those united smiles are fakery, lies and deceit. disgusting.


heeloo.

i'm in computer labby now for this math thingy. mdm tay just went out to take some cds. she was expectin us to load the progamme without the cd. oh. lames.

gort my sj uni checked, glad it was finally approved. heex. sin ee was so strict loh. yahui one haven approve yet. sho sad. heex.

chillinhg around.

and oh yups, the date can't seem to show on the post itself. so sad. aww.
heyas.

my com carn seem to host doodleboard. oh no. oh no.

just went to friendster. i dun lyk friendster. oh. edited stuff. lames.

wanna thank tiff today. i love you to bits darling. thanks for being there.

i love cheryl's daddee. he was so nice. bought all the uniform stuff for me. thanks so. you rock.

i dun have time to blogg animore. heex.
haha. pretty much thought i would change my blogskin cos i have the temptation to. heex. feel like blogging now. i love billabong. much more than op. because of many many reasons. yeah.

this blogskin is so nice and bitchy. i mean, the bikini's so nice and colourful. done using photoshop. yup. like, i think adobe photoshop. oh. ya.

bought my pentorch. :)

mock com's coming up this sat, haven even finish doing uniform yet loh. arrgh. hope we do well. :) god bless.

i love my sj uni. looks nice. without the barray though. makes us look dumb. haven do the shoulder flash yet. hope samuel will do it so we can all wear it.

i feel like eating pizza hut. i am a pig. i am nort.


whew. long time since i blogged. got broadband unlimited starting today. shuangx. 3>


got punked by jia jin. oh. lames.

feeling kinda moody.

dun feel like blogging.











i am but a foolish girl.
i indulged too much in our love.
i indulged till i took you for granted.
now its too late for regrets.
maybe i should have listened.
maybe.