chinese cheng2 yu3 makes me faint. and oh no tmr i have this stupid frigging chinese spelling for cheng yu okay. now tell me how incredibly stupid is that.

school's getting more and more bland. lu han ling came in today and preached for one lesson. chemistry wasn't worse, but sucky this is i KNOW tan jf wld call me everytime WITHOUT FAIL to answer some question so i've no choice but to pay attention during class. and her stupid high-pitched voice just makes me wna slp!

tmr we're having the 50th anniversary opening ceremony & some concert and we have to wear tht uglyyy shirt. haha. but for the love of my sch, anything comes man. ;p i think the song for the anniversary is nice!

i can't keep up. with geog, math, chinese, physics. ARR see how i'd die and evrything? SIAN.

volleyball made me mad. haha. and then it starting raining and i had no brolly and i had to share one with shunjie and shunjie is so fat he took up three quarters of the brolly and it was so heavy(the rain) and it was soaking my shirt my shoes my bag my file..

you get the idea.

RAHH!
this morning was damn screwd cos my fugging contacts are bothering me! since tht stupid incident i tore my left contact, i'm only left with my right and its super blur and i cant see properly so in the end i decided to be blind for the rest of the day. but but, i'm buying new contacts tmr! :D

had two papers today, first was LA, it was quite okay but i think i sort of wrote off-point. GEOG WAS A TOTAL SCREW UP, i swear. thaddeus and zhuowen started betting with me if they got over 20 marks they wld treat me to pizza hut or whtevr. HAHA.

i cannot cannot wait for saturday! we'd be having a team outing, WHEE, and it'd be roller-blading somemore, DOUBLE WHEE. must camwhore on tht day because they say i look bloody tall in blades. HAHAHA.

jewel in the palace is a super nice show but the story unfolds super slowly. i sleep quite late nowadays and my dark circle's nvr been more obvious.

and i am so glad there's no supposed mock comp on 14th april! tht's a very very big relief, and besides tht most probably we won't be taking part in intra-comp! haha, time for us to see our sqdmates luh, they see us until so shuang during zonals!

another 2 wks to go before training starts again, and this time we have two new mentors - junxiang and huiru. why must qiaoping go? oh MUST you go? ): we'd really miss her, really really. WE LOVE YOU.

i felt better, but somehow it wasnt enough. i know i sldn't expect more, but just a weeny more to make me feel happy for days.
watch this ! its great for people who find no meaning in life and although its not ALL that motivating, it helps! :D

its been a lot of chatting today! in the audi during LA lecture i was chatting with tiffany all the while about stjohn stuff, but you can't blame me cos the show was really boring, what 'bowling for columbine'.

everything bores me. whee i shall wait for team outing. then we can go east coast and SNAP SNAP pictures and rollerblade! WHEE.

geog and LA test is tmr i haven't freaking studied for it. ): die alr lor! i'm failing evrything man.

till next time.

i didn't trust you. once you get a new one, you forget all about the old one like its nobody's business. yet it hurts me.
i feel very very happy now because i just brought a medium tub of ben&jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream! and you know how much i love ben&jerry's! :D i think i shall eat it over a period of like 1 month! HAHA. and then i know shunjie wld say tht wldn't even last for an hr. RIGHT?

and, i really regret putting my first choice as home nursing head! i just suddenly hate home nursing, and its so damn ironic cos i told junxiang i like home nursing. GAHH. nah, i prolly won't get it anyway with mian mian arnd.

i really really can't believe tht we're going to be instructors soon. i think we're not up and ready for it yet. wld we do a gd job? wld our new sqd like us? so many questions. and despite so much we've been through, JNCO and evrything, i still dont think we're ready. its like suddenly, we're cadets, and BANG! next moment we're instructors.

for me, i think the transition is a rapid and shocking one. when i was in std 1, i thought nothing much of my instructors, i just thought they were people who was there to help us train, and tht's about it. but as we grow older, i realise tht there are so many many responsibilities involved with being an instructor.

you're afraid you might be bias, you're afraid tht you're not going to do a good job. wld they like the PTs we plan? wld they think we're reasonable? wld they understand why we're doing this, doing that?

all tht has come to me now. and till the day i finally pass out, i cannot fully know, or perhaps understand how the life of an instructor is. i'd raher remain a cadet all my life, but i know there are responsiblities we must fufil. i really really hope we can fufil our duties tgt as a sqd.

god i had no idea i sound so mature. HAHA.

you're still on my mind. can't shake you off, no matter wht. this sucks, this hurts. relieve me.
i've changed my skin! whee! did i hear people groan again because this is like the upteenth time i've changed it? :D

but i really do love this skin! hover over the picture for best effects. its plain and rather simple but thts wht i love about it.

i hate to lose my ez'link card like i did last time cos it means no library membership anymore! and as a PR, i have to bloody pay like 10.50 for some stupid membership while singaporeans pay only 1 dollar. WHERE'S THE JUSTICE IN THAT? rahh.

i should tell you i watch chinese paladin ytd on ch U. its the 'sword' show (as i like to call it) on ch U on saturdays starting frm 9pm.

its a bloody nice show i tell you. i cry almost evry episode. HAHA i'm so gay. and this is something one of the characters said-

rather than possess, why not understand?

and god i am finding myself sounding emo in my posts these few days. NO. but i couldn't resist! couldn't resist typing those stuff to make me remember five yrs down the road.

you said you given me up, and you wldn't ever again. you had no idea how i felt then.

shunjie, i am not a horny bitch. i DID NOT stare at zhengwei because he was half-naked. ha ha.

went shopping today. i was feeling good cos i had a fair bit of money in my wallet (tht's super rare). teeheehee. i was looking for a G MASK beauty wrap outlet at tampines mall but apparently there wasn't any. i want those swarovski crystals on my phone, damn it.

and i brought a fair bit of things and i ended up having very little left! haha. i brought 2 hairbands, one pair of earrings, 2 FOX tops, 1 FOX summer dress, clips, hair tyers. i esp LOVE the fox summer dress and tops! and i spent a bomb on them. haha.

had routine training ytd. my cpr assesment sucked and so did my footdrill command. and i anyhow fill in the post form thing. GAH. anyway i wonder which role i wld get, give me anything but logistics. : D

i've got those back-to-sch blues, if you knw what i mean. sch is super sian if not for some things now. and stupid effing geog and lang arts test is coming up.

more chocs, please.

whats all this gap between us, all these awkwardness, we ain't going anywhere.
evrything sucks.

but at least vball was good today. HAHA. some guy joined us with his friends and WOO he was super funny and evrything. volley'ed for arnd 3 hrs and got sunburnt again! haha i am getting darker and darker. whee.

yay i managed to compile more or less my favourite songs on a cd which so totally rocks and i can listen to it whenever i want to. my room's esp good for listening to cds because of the fact tht its next to the corridor and i cant open any windows except the top ones so all the sound is kept inside the room (if i close the door) so its really good. yeah.

and i hate my mum.

freak, cant forget you.
new term, so we got to sit in our new sitting arrangement!

haha. tan jinli says tht with our new sitting plan, our class's going to get worse, cos all the noisy people are clustered together. HAHA. i'm sitting with leeyan now, she's like super pro in math! and then in front of me's wenyi and hongyi, then behind me yuqi and thaddeus, and behind them tiffany and zhuowen. :D

people frm italy still aren't back yet, i think they'd come tmr. my sch life is totally screwed because i still owe ong peck see so much math homework! haha. elective today was one crazed lesson. we got mr justin lee, some angmoh the sch recruited to teach us, and we started on THE TEMPEST.

we held the lesson in the AVT and he didnt feel comfortable with us sitting on the red seats sp he made us sit on the floor arnd him in a semicircle. and then, i felt like i was in american school! its like i watched this kind of thing on tv and there i was doing it! haha. we went through act one scene one and we split into 3 grps to play a skit.

HAHAHA i tell you tiffany's grp was super funny cos you're supposed to have an action while saying a line so tiffany went bawling. HAHAHAHHA. and then she started pretending to vomit and evrything. and then the only guy in our class pretended to fall off the table. GAHH it was so cute.

neither did i want it to end this way, there's nth i cld do except stare.
WHEE.

ytd was the zone comp.

first aid was quite okay because we were loud (basically it was yahui) but it wasnt tht good for me cos i screwed my CPR and pearl ning says my recovery position was like crap. HAHA. but nevertheless i thought it was quite gd cos the sir was very impressed with us! :D

footdrill was damn embarrassing because i went off pitch at least THRICE because i was trying to be loud and my voice is like super high okay. and i think we didn't do too well but still like we got highest for footdrill with 43/50!

home nursing was the most screwed because we didn't know what to do and in the end we only did meal medication taking and talking! haha the patient was super nice and kept giving up hints.

and the home nursing said tht we were really really CUTE!

AND SO WE WON CHAMPS! :D

i was really really really happy cos we finally got what we wanted aft 3 mths, WOOO! next hurdle is like nat and i really dont expect to get champs but i think we'll jus try our best. we get to rest for only 2 wks before all the trainings start all over again! ): sigh.

do you have a plaster?
cos i think i fell fer you.
today's friday. tmr's saturday, and the day aft, sunday.

):

i didn't know i cld cry tht hard; and yahui tgt with me too. and i thought she was really strong!

the day we spent nearly 150 hours for, for tht 7 hours on stage, for all tht pride and glory? i reject.

and my tears flowed down like a running tap.
went down to chong cheung high sch tdy to look at the home nursing requistes.

THE SCH IS BLOODY BEAUTIFUL, and not jus tht, its very very big! haha. i think they have at least 5 separate buildings, lol.

we finally got tho see the home nursing requistes, but i think its rather pathetic. no wonder they have to lend frm east view. HAHA. we took quite a bit of pictures and evrything, and then we left! haha.

now must go an study alr! omg you see i so hardworking. WOOHOO!
i feel like typing a really long post. like about how i am feeling, but yes, i know its rather pointless, no? cos then i'd be typing in riddles and evrything. so i might as well shut up. haha.

pressure is building up, and tell me, there isn't even a single day of my holidays left. tmr was supposed to be the only free day and we still have to go down to cc high to look at home nursing requistes.

i don't know if we can nab zone, but really many many thanks to huifen, zhiying, adelyn, wanting, jocelyn and huaxin. you guys are always here to help us and whether you realise it or not, we're really grateful to you guys fer helping. :D

AHH! i have no time to do the assignments!

i hate you fer yr stupid excuses.
comp train today. we did like first aid the whole day.

and i swear i like did at least 50 cycles of CPR okay. i was basically like doing cpr for every case and there was two cases i had to do CPR fr the whole case. AHH! its like my mouth can stretch damn big now. HAHAHHAHAHHA.

jiayou man. we can do it.

you just nvr realised. if only you did, and knew how i felt.
went shopping alone today, and finally brought my shoes. i don't know why but i always shop by myself on weekends. haha. :D

i went to bata and spotted a nice pair of shoes, but there wasnt my size! i wanted a size 6 but they only had 8 and 8.5. ): but in the end i brought frm sportslink. its not so nice but it'd do. it was at half price, and the inital price was like 60 bucks.

i brought handphone socks, which was quite nice, and they said if i bought one they'd free me another one so i decided to buy it! $1.9 is like damn cheap for two hp socks.

and i bought these gay butterfly hairclips too. HAHA. its like freaking childish but i decided to buy for the fun of it.

AND I FORGOT TO BUY MY PIGLET, AHH! i shall buy it tmr. its like so cute, i saw it ytd while shopping with my team for presents. the head is damn and the body small small one. :D i'm so excited i'm going to get it! and we brought these really nice thing for our mentors! (:

this is going to be one crazed week. trainings on four days. ): no homework time alr.

yes, i'm tht spoiled bitch who wants evrything.
so in the end, i didn't get to go roller-blading today! ): it was really bad cos i felt like i really needed something to unwind but never mind, i guess there's nothing i can really do about it.

i changed my blogskin, again! haha. i just couldn't resist, you know? this is so lovely, there's something about the picture tht makes me love it like crazy!

bloody hell, my neck's still sprained. tell me i'm damn lucky. it hurts even when i try turning my head to the right!

later i'm going to buy new shoes. (: i love, and the white jac too.

i need time to get over this, countless.

stop grabbing those one-liners frm my blog and putting it elsewhere. COS I KNOW, and you aren't bloody original or what. FUCKING BITCH.
back frm training! and i just bloody sprained my neck. like how spastic is tht?

i can't even tilt my head to the right! GAHH!

i must go roller blading tmr! ((:
oh god, i just rmbed i promised xinhui to do this thing for her. so here it is.

8 qualities for my prefect guy

1. give me a reasonable amt of money for evrything.

girls are born to shop. don't ask me why.

2. give me personal space, not overly sensitive

god, i hate guys who are overly sensitive. they get irked even seeing you near another guy? yeah it sucks. give my space and i'd give you yours.

3. dont flirt if you love me. and DON'T BE A DRINKER, AND NEVER A SMOKER.

i think it's quite understandable, right? one thing, no smokers. i don't care if you think its cool or whtever. i hate smokers, and i dont think i can ever live with one.

4. comitted to me, our relationship, and our children, if any :D

we need two hands to clap. period.

5. receptive to new ideas, respect me, and rmb those special days

i love guys who remember the slightest details, i really do. makes my heart melt like anything.

6. LOVE ME WHOLE-HEARTEDLY.

7. LOVE ME WHOLE-HEARTEDLY.

8. LOVE ME WHOLE-HEARTEDLY.

:D

i knw this is short but if i have time i'd do a longer one aft zonals, okay? sry but i'm really tired.
i'm really tired!

my hands are dying from typing the LA assignment, and now i'm working on the MPP assignment. Damn, man. when wld i ever finish my work, and when wld i ever pass a test?

comp training tmr, routine training on saturday. i wld have died if not for the march holidays, which actually isnt any better because i have trainings on monday, tuesday, thrusday and friday.

sigh. /

):
and you make me speechless.
comp train is killing me silently inside.

zone comp is creeping up on me us, and i'm not sure if i'm we're prepared.

i failed my physics test. expected, haha. thaddeus told me he'd get one more mark than me, and he really did, damn! and then he and zhuowen came to tekan me! gay shiat. :D

like jiajin, i've never passed a single test. ): check out his blog man, its so depressing it makes you feel like crying cos then you think of yr own problems?

AND, major point, my life is seriously consumed by st john. CONSUMED, over and over again. in the morning, i rush to sch to do footdrill. after sch, i chiong to canteen to have lunch to have comp train. when i reach home, i read up about st john.

all my volleyballing time is gone. all my leisure, all my time, basically. all my SLEEP. and sometimes i think i'm not fit to be a comp team member, but so? i am alr one. there's no backing out, cos there's this frigging responsibility burdened on yr shoulders.

oh shiat i am sinking into depression? haha. i must cheer up, or i won't live through this.

i don't even have to tell you how i feel. you know.
mdm pearlning sent us a email, felt kind of motivated but i know i wld lose the motivation again.

just now went to the stupid temple at loyang, and we like spent 4 hrs there queuing to change our luck. mainly we went there to pray for gd health (aft wht happened to my bro) and there was just many many people there you knw?

haha. later i'm going back to my old place again to return the vcd i got and check out the hair thingy again. (: yay i am so excited about the whole idea!

i need more benjamins, more yusof ishak. GIVE ME.
my hair is soo much less dry now, thanks david.

i'll be signing up for package C, which offers a lot for very little money! :D god i am so elated. i shall start the package in may!

yay yay yay.

my brother went to cgh agn today.

by the way, my shoes haven't arrived! ): god how much more must i wait? when wld they restock? why my foot so bloody big? ARR!
got a new blogskin. somehow made my myself, i guess, with credits to anne.

initally, the skin was this (http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=83745&action=Preview) but it was damn screwed and the picture was missing so in the end i put up my own picture. i was unable to photoshop it because i had no photoshop! gah.

but yeah, this skin IS personalised isn't it? haha, and i can change the picture often to whatever i like. so i may just start ripping other's pictures and putting it up as and when i like. (:

routine training was even more screwed ytd. i did no pt at all, the whole day it was like assessments and more assements and then they made us to case as a team. it was really bad, i need to start reading up more.
vball therapy was good today. elson and quanyi joined us, which only made it more the fun because its always more challenging. (: gah and i always miss the ball which is irritating! and then there was this time where its like 6 girls against 2 guys? HAHA, and we created the can-can dance!

lalala man! i was initally very pissed today because of some stuff but later it turned for the better aft sch. oral test was such a failure okay? i think i just pass only.

you bitch 'bout me behind my back, and you think i don't know.
and the absurd point is, you bitch about the most ridiculous things.
screw you, smelly bitch, i know.
get leo out of star idol now! i cannot stand his acting.

okay, htt's totally out of point so, yeah, i am digressing.

i took twit photos with my cam today with wanting on the bus! haha, we were like acting cute and we took 20 over photos in a snap. it was hilarious!

i dont wna go for training this sat. like i am damn tired and i need to rest okay?

aiyah, f-ing screwed.