been a tiring two days at school,

and on friday when we go to LT 2 for our lecture i wanna (like shunjie said) sit far far away from where i dekited but it couldn't have bee possible anyway 'cause i dekited on the teacher's table.

& it still feels best to be in the squad, just like it always does.





POP'07, finally over.

the days started with us falling in at 8am in the morning to do parade rehearsals and w most of us only sleeping 2 -3 hours the previous night. we did the marchpast over and over again, only trying to achieve the best effect 'cause it was really the last time we were marching together as a squad.

when the real parade really came, it was so.. so much pride and so much memories. and then you see some of us getting our ranks and getting promoted and all the seniors being so proud of all of us and thanking us for our efforts.. and us trying to execute the best drill we cld possibly do 'cause it was really really the last time we stand in front of the corp as one body, as one squad, as a team of brothers and sisters.

the marchpast was the best, yi'an was crying already and it was like the marchpast represented us really having been in the corp for 4 years and them appreciating our service and us being with each other for so many many days.

we starting marching around the track, cheering our hearts out and even then i wasn't crying. i was sad, but no tears came up, not until we reached the basketball court and i saw wanting and she was crying and we started hugging and all the tears just flowed out. esp hongsheng i was damn taken back when i saw him crying so hard.

performance night didn't go as well and the std3s were really demoralised and during the sharing session we had so much fun interacting w each other. it was really quite suprising 'cause it was suddenly so easy to talk to them, and we don't have to stand in front of them as instructors anymore but as friends who offer advice. std3s are such a cute bunch it was really really regretting that we didn't spend enough time with them.

we didn't sleep for the whole night, and instead spent time talking with our smcs, teams, respective wings and finally at around 3am all of us sat down and talked to mdm qp, sheryl, yanqi, aiping, sir cheehoe, kristian, junxiang and junyang. the talk was really long but it was such a happy thing to do. shared quite a bit with sir junyang and it was really quite funny, yahui being huggable and all that! :D

aft they left that's when the emo period started coming and we started crying & the rest kept going haiya whats there to cry about and was so bo chap, and an hour later those who said that were crying like siao also. the worst was really in the morning when all of us really didn't want to leave each other, and those who didn't want to sign on had to return all the uniform accessories, and i had to part with my staff sgt rank i only got to keep for a few hours.

we gathered at the grandstand, and we just all sat there, quiet and crying, and when everyone came we had group hugs and individual hugs with everyone.. it was really really really the best.

i really lost track of how many times i cried just thinking that we won't be ever doing a PT together again, that we won't be taking our cadets anymore, that even if me and tiffny was in the same class we won't be in the same cca either.

i don't know which other 21 people would come for routine trainings weekly and do circuit pumpings with me when we all cld have been enjoying ourselves outside.

i really really love std4'07. i really really love my squad.

i really really love hongsheng samuel shunjie weisong manching yujia huiwen zhiying daphne jocelyn qingyi yahui huaxin elvina xinyi cheryl tiffany huifen wanting adelyn mian mian.
that's tmrw, thats the last day we're officially together as a squad, last time we're wearing the uniform before we return all our accessories, last time we're marching together as a squad.

i'm very excited. we're actually spending the night together! <3

WO AI NI MEN!
somebody should just slap me away from this stupid dumb computer table 'cause i have this many things to do:

1. study for hamlet test
2. finish writing cadet records
3. cut squad photos
4. learn our squad song
5. think of how to decorate the gift
6. finish maths
7. plan something else
8. letters to cadets

okay seems very little right but MY FOOT i only got one night and feeling like i can sleep now on the spot doesn't make matters any better. ):

2 more days to POP.. really things have been so hectic and busy there isn't even time to feel emo. and saturday is really coming super super fast its like lessons tmr, then POP prep and go home and finish last minute stuff prepare uniform boots and everything's gotta be the best 'cause its POP and possibly my last time wearing the uniform.

i <3 std4s!
kind of felt sorry for them 'cause the man looked like he wasn't young and he practically had to stand there like a statue most of the time until someone donated 2bucks. i wanted to donate actly but i didn't have the sapre money. the woman's v pretty!

look! my phone now for sale. ): parting with my one month baby. haha so lucky i managed to sell it at quite a okay price considering my super cool st john badge made two small holes in the phone's interface only just two days ago.

now i'm still missing my led screen that lights up so prettily in the dark ): , sony ericsson's activity menu, and those themes i made myself but i'd get over it i promise!

why the hell am i getting so emotional over a phone? tuhh. haha.

i've gotta run for maths test! :x lucks.

:D

practised for the marchpast today at the tracks. we got the tempo after our second try and it's really nice! :D hopefully on that actual day itself our marchpast will be perfect. haha then it started to rain after a while and the PA system always stops playing the song when there's lightning so we decided to stop.

we're all so mushy wushy now!

cheryl's like, "i love my squad"
elvina's like, "this day is coming soon.. Our Best For All.. always (:"
shunjie's like, "8 more days"
hongsheng's like, " winners' finale"
samuel's like, "std4`07 are <3.>"

i cannot lose out when it comes to this kind of things! so i want to go (still saying the same thing i did, haha) :

26hearts1soul,
now 22hearts but still standing strong. <3

bie ren kan bu qi wo men mei guan xi! yin wei you wo ai ni men, yin wei wo men hai you bi ci. :D (if you're my sqdmate take some time to figure this out, its worth it 'kay)

meanwhile i'd go off and think of something i'd want to give my sqdamtes for POP. :D i seem to be grinning too much for this post i figured it may be a bit hard to swallow and i might actly seem a little insane so i'd tone down a bit and change to smiling. (: i finally managed to overcome being lazy and input a tagboard for the sake of POP (somehow, though i don't know how)

okay i'm not making much sense, i better stop. (: nights.

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i know sometimes i ask for a little too much, but it's like an addictive, an addictive that i can't ditch.
we all need a little dose of it sometime

so thank you
<3 to our teams! our pride and joy, always. :D

had ctc outing at ecp last saturday. was quite fun lah and dinner was the fab dab! we had sakae pastamania and pizza. :D (and also a prsnal pleasant suprise frm booboo). haha the sharing session was simple yet really nice we even popped champagne! candice's cork flew off her bottle even before she cld pop it. and their team was really sweet and it was so sad to see them crying but its okay! still stand strong okay. handover felt like a mini POP already, and its like we're finally finally over our competiton life really time passes so damn fast its over in a blink. and it feels so good to be finally getting the NA book and being able to add in our own chapters in. hao qi dai. (:

POP is nearing and we're still as busy as ever; our dances not finished, our parade rehearsals not done and our signing on choices not decided, but i know POP will really really be the best best ever & i really really look forward to it really really. it's going to be the best! :D our pride our pride. our parade must be the best!

to all the losers out there who think all ugs suck: YOU SUCK MORE. like you'd ever know how it feels like to be in a ug. boo you! :D

i suddenly love my squad so much. WO AI NI MEN! really.

28july2007-
once 26hearts1soul,
now 22hearts but still standing strong. <3

nobody can take away the memories,
not the strongest winds, the fiercest storms.

( p.s. i love you too. )
had last training with the standard3s today.

:D the cert part was very successful! and earlier on during PT watching them lie on the tracks and singing the time away, clapping and all that.. was such a beautiful moment. its like we took them for only a year and i'm not that close to them but something just made them seem so lovable all at once. its like seeing your kids finally grow up. talking once like you did, going through everything like what our squad did.

& when they saw the cert we made for them a few of them started crying and couldn't stop, it made everything we did worth it!

and squad PT was best. <3 the feeling of just being together and singing songs.

super super last training.

smile in the middle of the night.
thank you thank you thank you.

ai ni ai ni hao ai ni.

:D
had nationals today at guangyang.

it was such a tiring day yet so fufiling when evening came and the results were announced; its like it didn't matter that we got 4th and our guys got 3rd and AC got 5th, nothing mattered 'cept the fact that our sqdmates were always there for us. :D

i didn't want to cry, really! i told myself cannot cry cannot cry and i actually didn't cry until zhiying and the rest came over with tear stained faces and hugged us so tightly and there's really no need to say anything.. everything that we wanted to say to each other came through the hugs and suddenly it came it me that it was really our last time entering the comp as one team and it marks the end of our comp team life, and that we knew no matter what we got even if we got last our sqdmates wld still love us as much! god i love love my squadmates. words really can't describe how i feel lah. this sounds cheesy but still.. <3 them.

can't believe i've been through all this comp team life for like, 3 years. been through 3 zone comps and 2 nationals already. time really flies and it flys by before we know it. and all this we have our mentors to thank. & now their msn pm is "our pride and joy, always. (: " how lovely is that. we love you toooooo.

what comes, only comes if it's from your heart.
i've never felt this tired.

but its okay, gna be over soon anyway.

:D you you you.
what could be more perfect than this ? :D

wahaha v cute. :D

wohamygod knocked-out.

finally got my long long awaited present, and the mock un college done. we kind of worked quite fast i guess we finished it in around 2hrs plus and then we went shopping at bugis we basically shopped the entire building down.

and then i saw this girl with my ph0ne in pink and she had the silicon cover and i thought it looked not bad :D but rosie says that its super ugly whatever. so later when i reached tampines i went to the phone shop and asked them to let me see the cover and it was actually not bad until i saw this thin white transclucent strap that would go over the softkeys and that was so disgusting i decided i didn't want it anymore. ( i type in really long sentences w/o stopping don't i?)

everybody shines different!

and i really think so. everybody shines in their own way but only people who choose to see will see how others shine. people who are too caught up with themselves will never see and appreciate the people around them.