I am dying to get the dvd.

Landon: I'm sorry she never got her miracle.
Reverend Sullivan: She did. It was you.
Of all the truths we had to know about, maybe that was the only one which left the pain feel like a spoon scraping the bottom of your heart; and you didn't understand why it would choose to still do so when you're already so empty inside.

we give ourselves so many reasons to let go - to believe we aren't actually running away from the truth, to let ourselves have the freedom we don't deserve.

we're all sinning and we don't even know it.
it's so late now (like 1 am) but i feel so compelled to blog!

school has been crazy with make-ups and whatnot, i just started on complex 2 and haven't done revision package, next math tests vol of integration even (WTF)

& today in tuition i split my redbull (in an attempt to keep myself awake) all over my skirt so there was this supra big pool of redbull on it! but guoxue cldn't find tissue in time though she flew here and there looking for it so in the end my skirt just absorbed all the redbull -.- the most zzz part is in the end the tissue box was just sitting prettily on their coffee table in the living room 1 metre away. my kid is the paragon of sharp-eyes.

okay i actually got a lot of those insane random emo pemo things to write but now i'm listening to 牛仔很忙 so very kill mood.

just now i was doing GP to send to tiffny cause shes ASLEEP and i think my conclusion very good!
conclusion:

ALBERT EINSTEIN SAID "SCIENCE WITHOUT RELIGION IS LAME, RELIGION WITHOUT SCIENCE IS BLIND"
Albert Einstein is always right, so they can both co-exist.
pretty good training today, am slowly getting used to the 5-5 alignment but it's so dangerous that i have to focus very hard everytime! it's almost as if once i lose all that concentration i will never hit the strike pocket. i think all of us are slowly improving but i need to do it faster, faster b/c a'div is only one month away!

days have been pretty much flying past without so much as a hint. although it's the march holidays now it doesn't feel like it, all with training take up so much time and whatnot. to find balance in the midst of it all really isn't easy and there are so many times i struggle to grasp the deeper meaning behind everything, to make life less akin to running in circles.

those times i was so fervent, when it took me some time to acknowledge that the girl beaming in the mirror was myself. to walk home and suddenly have a smile spread across my face, to see the happiness in things i never did, to have my hand linked with forever. too foolish, too silly.
I haven't got the mood to do some sort of pensive posts for a while, but i realise that when you do, it clears the skies and relieves th heart of any burden. If not all, at least some.

Sometimes when i need to find a driving force to propel me to keep going forward, i remember those things, and it gets a little easier. I struggle to find meaning beneath all that you're telling me. We might just be able to survive on our memories, because the present simply does not provide enough.

i swear i feel like clapping my computer into prison right now. All thanks to my fucking CPU which died on me I have lost all my photos, photoshop & evrything else just when i need to use EVERYTHING. my alternative CPU is rather ancient and the USB port is screwed so i cannot transfer anything from anywhere and i cannot print things because my computer fucking cannot detect the printer so i cannot install it. On top of all that MSN keeps jamming my system so everything is moving at snail speed..

WHAT THE FUCK i tell you what the fuck. 

A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div A'Div 

To my poor arm and thumb:

Sorry to be putting you through hell for the next few months. But you must do me proud okay mummy needs to work hard to have good performance in A'Div! Mummy promises to let you rest once it's over!!

Alright i just had this bout of madness. But then again now when i have friday sch trngs and sunday vicpro trngs already wanna die so can imagine this coming week when i have trngs 3 days in a row frm friday to sunday MY ARMS WILL JUST HATE ME AND FALL OFF MY SHOULDER. ): 

in april even worse hahaha omg 4 trngs a week! my thumb will confirm rot and 10000 blisters will grow on it. i already have this permanent brownish mark on it already dear godddd

OK I WILL WORK HARD!