Delight Of The Day.

My darling Fee made the most hilarious comment during chem practical today & i was trying really hard not to laugh out, it was so terrible. She's psycho. Kow was sitting next to me during practical and just b/c she happened to see both of us talking to each other and he was sitting facing me, she asked him to stop talking or she'd chase him out, and if he doesn't sit facing the front she'd tell mr teo

"b/c no bgrs are allowed in DHS."

i was so totally -.- when i heard that and it was so funny at the same time! She's the only person who'd think of these crazy and totally irrelevant things & making that such a big fuss out of nothing.

over that, got back geography test too. got a B. ): my question b)iii was so wasted! i shouldn't have done the planning haha.

flag day tmrw. wish me luck! :D
tday was quite fufiling. learnt so much during geography and so many people were asking so many questions and though it gets REALLY annoying at times, i like the environment lah. :D and after chemistry lesson it was two straight tests in a row! ): but it turned out all well b/c the tests weren't that hard after all, 'cept i feel like slapping myself for letting myself forgo question 1 which was a total giveaway worth 3marks! and my gradient's 1.02 whatthehell.

apparently roy got very very really agitated after the test and he was glaring at derrick when derrick was telling him to hand up his MC. walau how can like that! derrick's just being nice lah. and kennard too. didn't expect it oh but well, cheer up guys! just a minor test yeah. (:

and aft sch had badminton with wenny and sherm. goooddd. :D i <3 baddyminny haha.

:D better mood now, was in a rather bad mood starting a few days ago. really weird! i'd feel so hyped up and so unhappy the next.

Love you all! For now i'm really lazy to put up the tagboard (and i have the feeling i'd never get it done) BUT for now just leave comments if you really wna tell me smth kay!

My constant ecstacy -
had badminton during PE today and it was really good! :D so fun. MY LOVE FOR BADMINNY IS GROWING. haha. had vball with the girls aft sch but didn't quite feel like it, and wantd to play badminny with tiffny but the hall was bookd by the badminton-ers themselves so had no place to play. feels so good to be sweating sometimes.

walked at bedok with wenyi till i felt like my legs cld give way anytime! i was talking alot and i felt so thirsty.

alright this is so random! i actly have nothing to blog about.

TUH/
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i still can't believe i left my card on the bus this morning! damn i heard something drop and i didn't know what and i cldn't check b/c it was so dark, and so i ran my shoes over the floor to see if i cld hit anything but i didn't. DUH ITS A CARD. haha.

nvm. smth gd still happned though today's sch was rlly bad.
hey dears!

i've just finished studying for geography and i nvr felt so good about preparing for a test before. haha. today i made the extra effort to come home early, and i studied since 5 in the evening all the way up till ten with the only exclusion of hana kimi. (: SO I STUDIED FOR 4 HOURS HAHA.

oh and watching hana kimi really made me feel -.-. the ending was total shit and really really not what i expected but ohkay la at least there's a sequel. can't wait for sunday to come.

i'm so tired! :x was really exhausting, the training today. and tmrw's a even longer day with full day training RAWR. but ohkay la i hope all this hard work pays off and we actually get champs, and then we get break for 3 weeks, and if we do win we'd start training for nats. ): hard life. i just want this to end soon!

starting to feel the stress already, but the stress definetely decreases with time and experience lah. i think the xiao dui's even more pressurised! this time quite diffrnt, got no more 3 teams joining. only two.

all these trng's sucking up my time, rawr.
RAWR!

haha was feeling kind of bored today so i asked my girls out for badminton! :D wenny tiffny and jm came over for a few hrs of badminton and haha each of us took turns to pair with jiamin the lousy (LOL). really felt good to be sweating!

on a totally different note, i think tonight's dinner suckd haha.
its such a shame and i copy what jiamin said, totally (thanks girl)

"Have been blogging in another space. There are times when I hate having to think before I blog, consider who's reading my stuff in here and thn self-censor myself; you nvr knw who's reading yr thoughts/rants and it doesn't feel helluva good, being so overexposed."

alright so now that you guys get the idea, bye! shall come back here kind-of often cos i can't really bear to shut this down. 3 yrs worth of memories!
lessons in class today was really exceptionally mundane and.. i dont know how to say it but i've really no drive to pay attention and all that, only during geog did i perk up a bit b/c mr leong was going through impt stuff.

and after sch we had to cheorograph the mass dance for tmrw and boy boy i was really tired halfway through planning already cos i did a lot of jumping when we were trying to think of steps. you know, that kind of feeling? when you've been really jumpy and high and all of a sudden you're just feeling really drained and weak. okay maybe its b/c i've been skipping most of my meals nowadays.

and we had to clear our class b/c some MOE officials were going to have a seminar in our and 4G's class. :D i dread school suddenly and i feel like slapping myself. ):

i'm really tired and really really, envious of those who are going to have a proper march holiday. srsly i dont have time for myself at all, 'cept for perhaps one day and the rest are either comp trains or course days. i feel really squashed! :x i'm really glad i'm passing out soon and that means i'd definetely be more free and i can join another CCA. alright i really shouldn't be saying that.

it all came crashing down on me just now as i was.. dreaming away. haha that i really can't wait for how that turns out, that how i want to really just let go of all those shit i'm having and just.. be free. now i know how really really valuble time is.
i don't know why i'm like that, i just need a little little break.

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its so absurd and ridiculous when i have to do all these pretence, to pretend i'm not affected, not concerned, not giving a damn when i'm fucking do.

hate it hate it why does it have to be this way, why am i so.. stupid and useless and dumb. i'm so weak i dont even have the frigging.. determination, and sometimes i feel like its so hard to hold on i just want to let go, and then i think about all that's been told to me and i can't bear to.

i can't decide i can't make a choice.

so how.
i feel so happy! haha i kind of feel.. liberated though i dont know why.

went to queenstown today to get the classtees and luckily ours was there by the time we got there. :D now we've got our cls tees and yeah its nice la but BLOODY BIG haha. maybe i'd beg my mum if she'd alter it for me! my number's 72 yay i love 72.

i feel so stupid typing this b/c no one will actly see this but heck it. haha. running 2.4 tmr! hopefully i'd get like A la. to at least make up for the D i got in inclined pullups.

and then again sometimes that little bit you give me,
is much, much more than enough.
hey its been a long time since i blogged! haha i doubt anyone'd know this new url la haha but anyway if you manage to find it, then you're PRO. haha

i dont know la something's been bothering me lately and it isnt feeling too good, and i keep thinking i'm such a worry-wart as well. ): i hate that kind of feeling, you know. and when i'm not feeling too good i just cry and cry and cry and it gets to myself as well 'cos i'd think i'm so bloody useless and i sldn't be crying over that at all, and i deserve better, that kind of shit.

being 15 sucks. haha can't wait for 16 to come, maybe something good will happen! :D and i swear i'd work harder for my studies haha though i'm definitely improving from last year. jiayou! baba i sound so dum,b encouraging myself.

had comp train today and i helped train the benny people. haha it was okay la for first training but i think they definitely cld be better prepared! okay so now i know how exasperating it gets when yr mentees don't learn what they're supposed to at home. and then i waitd for the bloody support meeting to end and i waited till 7 can you believe it!

stop making me addicted to yr love,
cos you can't give me enough to make me satisfied.