did i mention i love this skin totally? i think im gna keep it for quite long.

the model's HOT, HOT stuff. haha. i love the hover effects in this skin! so prettay. the blogskin is a bit screwed here and there, but yeah, thts abt all its flaws!

OH MY GOD, i gta pia for physics.

LATERS.
GAH.

i can pull my hair out now because of chemistry. ): bad bad bad!

haha. i think its super amusing tht gena thinks i am a mix of eurasian and malay! i agree with the latter, because i am afterall a malaysian! WHEE.

oh my god i bought so many things today! i finally got my contacts, new solution, this cool new anti-bacterial lens case, and new saline! woo i am very happy.

i bought this super cute winnie and piglet nail clipper, so tht i can use it during trainings, because i am the NAIL IC!

haha, freak it.
i can seriously say i got the best home nursing training today, it was so hilarious! the bad bit is tht my eye got infected (yes again) during the whole thing but it was a small matter.

training with NA is super fun. they strated speaking in weird accents, and they're really good. we have so much to learn frm them, yet so little time.. ): but nvr mind we'll try to asorb.

seems like my team got same views about our sqdmates huh? (: our team has telepathy!

and oh i tell you our team (excluding daphne and mian) and NA was on bus 30, single decked (wth) and we were standing near the rear of the bus, and then this man sitting at the most back row of seats whipped out his hp camera and started snapping pictures of wht we thought was possibly us.

its like WTF? it was super obivous and he held his camera SO BLOODY HIGH its like the screen is at your nose bridge and he's so stupid when his camera takes pictures it has this "KA-CHING" sound you knw?

and we heard the sound at least thrice. i cld have sworn he was ether mentally ill or just SICK.

anyway, i'm tired.

and i credit wanting for ytd's potterpuff picture! (:

drop the act. like you're so pityful.
i don't know if i want to go suport clara tmr! it ends so late though. ):

that aside, i finally decided to start doing the fucking chemistry mini project and hell, it isn't mini at all.

gah gah. now i don't know what to blog about. by the way, this post is my 405th post since august 2004! i'm been blogging faithfully almost evryday, HAHA.

i swaer to earn money. clinch all those flyer jobs during the hols. (: and i can't frigging wait for the st john kayaking course! i'll gat all tanned and have fun with my sqdmates and.. (:

now i know, you arent exactly who you seem.
luckily i didn't believe in your promises, or i wld have been hurt badly.
mock comp today!

i think it was a good experience, despite my team not doing so well, but we tried our best, and we were just bloody scared.

its like a waking call, to know wht standard we have, to remind us we need to buck up, and we have only 3 weeks for that. so we're gonna work doubly hard, train double hard, because we don't want to lose what our corp always had.

we must win. ARGH. its gonna be a tough stuggle, but we must we must.

i really miss the times when we were nc2, going to comp was for fun and to have experience.

and the nursing adult team is like freaking good in ome nursing. learn learn learn!

live by our team motto: to be the best.



snape and dumbledore! isn't it the cutest thing you're ever seen? :D

i'm really happy today. love to all the people who talked to me, for no reason at all. (:
mock comp tmr! butterflies are churning my stomach upside down, and i am really really scared and nervous.

i'd just try my best i guess. cliche, but true. we'd try our best, an achieve things tgt as a team!

my brother is screwed, i seriosuly think. i cut him off from his stupid DOTA game and he threatened to cut me off from blogger and msn messenger starting tmr. so dont be suprised if i don't blog. GAH.

i want to screw him , stuffing parsley up his butt.

mock comp, is the time for seniors to mock you.

i cldn't resist. neither could you.
i didn't feel like blogging, but i've got nothing better to do and i feel i need something before mugging.

so here i am. all yours, at least for now.

rumours spread far, eh? when you least want it to.

well, went for a lil shopping this morning. went back to the old place with my mum, and then it started raining as i rode there on my bike. well, heaven, THANKS, you got me frigging wet.

wanted to get shoes initally, i REALLY REALLY like this pair of dark pink one but there wan't my size, and i was told to come back next week! ): so i ended up buying a bag, just as good but i still want my shoes, wld go back next week cos there wld be restock by then! WOO! its really lovely.

my shoes, my shoes!

i miss my old place. you'd never know to treasure something till its gone.

and so.

i'm off.
i failed my math test. like it was pretty expected anyway.

i'm going for the cambodia/thailand trip (a.k.a st john trip) with a FEW of my squadmates. i must tell myself tht number does not matter! i'll make do. (:

mock comp is kind of stressing me out. i know you don't wna hear me rant anymore, but its on saturday and i haven't done anything at all. god.

there's so many tests on friday! chinese, toc, first aid, and leadership. its gna be a lot of studying tmr.

haha no school tmr, DAMN SHUANG. mr sng gives holidays like cookies! haha adelyn's line. :D ain't it hilarious? and i vow to get rid of my frikking eye circles.

UHH.

learn to accept wht ppl think, and not start tht shit you gave me.
i'm trying to be nice, but i don't think i can hold much longer.
for starters, turn up your speakers ( no ill intentions!) and listen to this.

http://www.bobricci.com/sbm.htm

buh-bye!
everyday is a freaked one. and i'm getting like really easily irritated these days, by those itty bitty things.

immersing myself in junjie's songs, i think they're make me feel heaps better.

maths test today is a bloody lost case, so forget it.

i don't feel like blogging now.

i need something, again.

much love.
i've got junjie's new album, cao cao! oh my god its fantastic. it comes with this big fat ass poster (and its really really big, about twice the size of the normal kind) and i'm planning to pin it up in my wardrobe! (:

the cover's really cool too, there are two covers tht you can choose frm, and i chose the one tht i liked better, HAHA.

his cao cao song is really nice! i'm like in love with it. the mtv rocks too, AHH!

retail therapy made me forget my troubles fer a while, haha, lynette's still the same, can always cheer me up. i saw this really cute mp3, and i decided to save fer it!

brought a few things today, saw this cropped jacket i really liked but got no moolah! crap.

and now i got a new fetish for those 'working woman jackets' or whatever! you know, those really nice suits? hah shall show you pictures when i'm less lazy.

i need money. like hell, i do.
this is my 397th post! reaching my 400th soon! (:

had comp train today. kind of sucked, and i know we did real bad. shadn't dwell on it. but why no one is willing to help us be casualty? its so sad, and everything just tires me out now. so yeah. i can't be bothered. if no one wants to help us voluntarily, we'll just have to do it ourselves. thanks fer those who made an effort to come down, although its always the same people anyway. some people just cant be bothered to help.

this above was written in a fit of anger.

i'm going to buy lin jun jie's new album, cao2 cao1! omg its so freaking nice, i was tempted to buy if after hearing the song 'cao cao' in montip. HAHA. shall go for slight retail therapy with lynette tmr been a long time, and i think i seriously need it. GAH.

Friday, February 17, 2006

i swear my internet is damn screwed.

had routine training today, and omg, it was unbelievely slack. we like spent one hour doing the peer appraisal thingy? haha.

we have comp train again tmr. its so tough, had i known, i would never agreed or wanted to join comp team. its like what people see on the zone comp day is after hours and hours of our long and hard training, and if we don't win all they think about is tht we're not good enough, but actually we've sacrificed so much of our time training, WE'RE the ones who are feeling the most upset.

yeah like whatever i'm babbling away. just like what i did during geography debate today. GAHH. i like started talking and talking about some shiat about oil and natural gas industry and then, i started babbling in chinese, and only realised i was speaking chinese till my tcher stared at me. HAHA.

shall end off here, i'm bloody tired today despite the slack training.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

in dunman high school, there was once a rule:

the face of the watch cannot be larger than 50 cents coin.

wna know more?

http://forums.tjc.edu.sg/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=1179&whichpage=18

anyway, do this for me (:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=biqi

omgomg i am overwhelmed!

if you guys watch tonight's episode of criss angel : mindfreak, you would know what i am talking about.

tht guy, HE WALKED THROUGH A GLASS PANEL, and i am by no means kidding. OMGOMG. you sld catch it if you haven't. the things he does, is just amazing.

tan jf just made me and tiffany stand throughout her class today. WHAT THE HELL. i can no longer stand her.

OMG I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT YOU.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

bang bang, i had a fantastic time at home today.

HAHAHAHA i missed jf's lesson today! and she checked the diagrams, and i didn't do it, but it doesn't matter becuase i skipped school.

math is killing me. i spent like 1 hour trying to figure it out today but it just didn't work out. and there's like this bloody test next week.

thaddeus told me tan jf cut her hair! omg i can imagine her like a nun like tht, damn funny.

then 5 people came to 'scold' me for ponning sch! om its not a crime, is it? i just felt very sian and i woke up late and i had slight cramps! ): hahaha.

i'm bored.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

it's valentine's today! love is in the air!

whee, i suddenly feel tht my skin is super compatible for valentines! isn't it isn't it? (:

sher-m has got this really cute baby piglet stuffed toy frm her bball junior and its soo cute. then yixiu got this piglet bloster, super super cute. HAHA. i can't believe i fell asleep writing my postcards yesterday night so i had to chiong everything out today during lesson.

and then i like spent close to 25 for all the vday presents, and i'm all broke. haha a lot of people give me sweets and chocs but its the thought tht matters ultimately! (: and i got 2 roses also! hiakhiakhiak.

had comp train later in the aft, and the sch's really empty. haha. all the people go out and watch movies then left us training. and like next saturday is mock comp, and march 19 is zone comp! i think our first aid and home nursing really cannot make it, and i know i sound irritating just yakking about it but i'm really kind of worrited although i appear not to.

but i think we did pretty well today, for starters. i think manching is damn funny! and then dickson ask shunjie weisong and manching to come and ask me to choose one of them to be my valentine. of course i'd choose WEISONG duh. (: but in the end they nvr ask me! haha.

my rose almost wilted, until i brought it home and dumped them in water. YAY now its so beautiful. (:

i like tht stupid yellow notebk june gave me. its stupidly cute! it has a mirror inside she gave me what she claims is handmade cookies. LIKE REAL.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i've changed my blogskin again. now my tagboard is like striking red. HAA.

i know a lot of people think my previous skin was nice, but i think its quite hard to read the post cos the words are light grey and i like to reread my posts so i'd rather have classic black! so muc more pleasing to the eyes.

and you know i'm a sucker for this kind of simple yet nice skins. (:

tmr there's chem, and i know tan jf just won't let me off. she won't rest till she sees me badly punished, and i swear tht won't happen.

i went shopping today, and it's good to shop alone. oh, did i mention i saw tht campus superstar guy ytd at tampine smrt but i didn't have a chance to take a picture with him cos by the time i saw him, i was on the mrt alr? he's tht RI guy. i think he has x-factor, and i like his voice.

i digressed. then at century square i couldn't resist buying myself a belt because i am BELTLESS (yes, pathetically beltless) and its quite cheap. i'm buying sth for myself tmr. haha. i shall give myself vday presents.

ytd we had cny dinner for st john. i think it was rather belated. but whatver it is, everything was just so routine i sort of grew tired of it.

we arrived earlier in sch, and the std 4s were rlly sweet cos they brought 3 big tubs of ice cream, drinks and crackers. omg, i like love them. it's so sweet of them! (: it was actually to celebrate the birthdays of people whose birthday was from jan to april, isnt it just wickedly sweet? and then we like sang the birthday song continously for about 10 times, for each of them birthday girls and boys.

then we had two games, the first being some block catching thang and the second 3 way captain ball and crap soccer. i only scored 2 goals for each game, which was so totally pathetic. then we chanegd into our home clothes for the steamboat dinner, and i just plonked this glitter red hairband on my head, y'knw? and it felt so out of place, but nvm.

i think the dinner was not bad, but like, i don't think it was worth 8 bucks. but the drinks were just oh-so-chilled and so fabulously nice for once!

omg, tuesday is like valentines'! and i haven't brought all the pressies yet. wonder whose my angel, MWAH. har whatever.

shall go shopp shopp later.

Friday, February 10, 2006

i officially declare my deepest HATE for MS TAN JF.

i don't love hating her, if you get what i mean. but now, i really cannot stand her. its like yesterday was bad enough, and today its like - forget it, i'm never going to like her the least bit ever again. i guess i never liked her to begin with. and i slap myself for even thinking once that i liked her teaching.

when we we were having free period today, she suddenly came in when i was listening to my mp3 and bingo, she caught me straight on. damn, and she even got joel's phone. and then she went straight to mr teo, the cdp head, and gave my mp3 and joel's phone to him, and instructed us to see mr teo at 2pm.

like fuck, you can just see frm her face tht she's bloody HAPPY tht she caught me and joel, me esp. i guess she just finds me damn a thorn, but heck, whatever. you sld have seen the way she told me to meet him at 2pm. she ws smiling like she just won a million bucks.

are teachers tht evil? they're HAPPY that their students get into trouble. THANKS. and she still, hasnt returned me my mag. i think she's not gna return me.

like, wtf? shes confiscating my magazine FOR NOTHING, REALLY. i think she's just scared tht people wld laugh at her if she was to buy teenage magazines and newsstands. aw, suck it already.

i was planning to complain about ms tan to mr teo when he talked to me, but in the end i decided not to because he very very nicely gave me my mp3 back. like, hell, i just said sorry, and BINGO! the key to returning my mp3 back. of course i have to write a apology letter, but it doesnt really matter. its the least i can do.

who deosnt hate her? just read melissa's and shunjie's blogs. HAHA. i think shunjie's post is esp esp funnaye!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

i'm feeling kind of pissed now, so like, excuse moi.

WA FUCK, i found you, yet again, and realised, YET AGAIN, you're doing what you did to me last year. when wld you ever realise tht i DON'T like you to do what you're doing, even now? can you stop all that pretense, because i can't stand it anymore, i'm feeling effing replicated? i'm not petty, but how wld you feel if someone did the same to you?

its natura for us to have bitchfits right? but is it normal for an old lady to have bitchfits? read: OLD LADY. HAHAHA. well, tan jf came in today and bitchfit like crazy, i also have to gan1 bai4 xia4 feng1.

she niao me THRICE. i'm not kidding. firstly, she said what my hairtie is BRIGHT RED. bright red is like rubber band red can? and my red was like, purple red? FINE. it was unreasonable, but fine.

what i cant stand is this:

before she came into the class, i was reading the magazine teens so when she came i chucked it under my table, and it was left open flipped to some page. then later, she sat beside me to look at some presentation, and she TOOK THE MAG away and ACCUSED ME OF READING IT. when i say i didn't, she was like "oh but you wld have a tendency to read it". FUCK IT CAN? and then she took away the mag, and some people in the class also protested very loudly (thanks!). ARGH!

and then you know i have this effing habit of cutting my nail skin with a pair of scissors in class. and she keeps referring to that as a 'manicure'. she mentioned it today in class again. and like FUCK, SHE BLOODY DIDN'T RETURN MY MAGAZINE. what right does she have? she is violating my human right, and its all the more ridiculous that i didn't EVEN READ IN HER CLASS and i was paying ATTENTION to the presenter.

tan jf just bloody made a fool out of herself today. and she held us back from lunch break for 20 minutes, and refuses to go or let us go until we apologise. c'mon, anyone with a brain wld know tht the apology wldn't be sincere right?

i'm not saying she doesnt have the right to scold us, but she is definetely picking on me. like, the whole mag affair was just bloody overboard? and scolds, and makes a fool of herself. mr kiw scolds, but evryone listens to him and respects him. but its just different for tan jf, you know? and besides, they're preaching the same thing.

ah, whatever.

i just rmbed, we screwed up geography. f it, again.

i need something. and i don't know what.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

we dont do anything in class. (:
i'm feeling a little pissed today, fer no reason. maybe it was because of geography or something. :x

i think mc's footdrill is baddd. we can't even do our keblakangs properly, much less to say thinking of doing any first aid or home nursing at all.

ARGGH. i think ms tan jinli was super pissed today, and she kept scolding us. and then after her lecture, she stormed out of the class. the class had been keeping quiet the whole while she was scolding, and then when she left, the class kind of suddenly made a lot of noise you know? gah, i'm not making any sense.

teeheehee. i went to tiffanehneh's house! it was such a perfect lcoation because its so close to changi general, i cld go there straight after gng to her house. her mum works as a babysitter, and, the BABY IS BLOODY CUTE! his name is randall, and his eyes are bloodaye big and nice! but he's not all that adorable because he doesn't smile no matter how much i tried to make him. ):

but never mind, tiffanehneh said randall NEVER SMILES. her mum says he's too young to know how to smile yet. HAHA. i took a lot of pictures of him! (: he's sooo cute.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

i read jiamin's latest post. go read it, i love it. smart-arse. (:

i laugh, at you, because of your immaturity. c'mon, grow up already.you KNOW, so don't pretend you don't. i don't want wna have bitchfits anymore, at least not here. bitchfits are not good for health!

people just like you for who you are. and if they don't, go figure yourself out, cos no one else's gna do it for you. if you're just going to continuing believing tht you are puurrffecct, then i'll feel really, really sorry for you.

anyway, to sum up, one big fat word just describes you : deprived, of everything. of love, of warmth, of friends who truly care 'bout you.

well, anything, my dear, if it makes you happy. i place a huge smooch on your cheeks. peace!

for all those people who cared about my brother, a big thank you. he's okay now, no big problem, the report came out today. sheesh, i think i was a bit oerreacting when i teared in sch today? thanks all, lovvya.

oh my god, i think we're gonna frikking die during zone comp. ): this is very sad. even during mock comp, i think sir pia leong's gna scream at us like crazy! geez.

MYGAWD i think i am hyperventilating.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

i've been feeling down inthe dumps lately, um, because my brother is at the hospital for some problems. complications may arise, and i'm feeling really quite scared for him, for the first time.

i can't really sleep in the night, and neither my mother. my father's the only one who still snores at night. hm. god bless, then. i'm gna visit him tmr at changi hospital again. its such a familiar place now, i've went there twice a day everyday.

whatever. life still has to go on, and there's nothing i can do about it. if you can, pray for me brother okay? HAHA. but actually its not life endangering, but still.. yeah. (: thanks.

and because of the fact tht i've got to visit him, i cant go support clara tmr! ): and soo many people offered me tickets! seems like tmr got a lot of tickets, and yet i can't go. hopefully by the next time clara's in, my brother wld be discharged and i can go, if they are available tickets! (:

going to jurong island tmr! haha, i don't really feel like going. go there and learn about petroleum. bloody SIAN.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

i drew the the entire patch of 'you're so hot' part! (:

i was soo tired last night, i slept with the spotlights in the living room and kitchen open and with the my bedroom door locked. and then this morning when i woke up, my brother and mummy has already left for the hospital.

right, so yesterday, i went to chingay: parade of dreams. jealous? (: yeah right, i went there to provide first aid coverage. HAHA. but anyway, the whole chingay was quite an interesting affair, i must say.

but before we get down to what happened at the chingay street parade, i MUST tell you what happened before we went for it. bloody sucks.

we were promised lunch and dinner, and in the end? we only got one meal, at about 3pm, which is supposed to act as both lunch AND dinner. and the duty lasts till 11. thanks la, hor? one meal to last you about 9 hours.

and then we were told we wld leave the headquarters at arnd 3 plus, in the end we sat in the hall for 3 hours and left for the parade at 6. man, st john headquarters is just damn screwed. we went there in ambulances, and it just felt bumpy.

we arrived at the chingay parade at 6 plus, and the parade only started at 8.30! and tyhen we weren't allowed to sit nor squat, and those fucking photographers kept asking us to move away. RAHH! i also don't want to block you, i want to sit down okay?

yeah, so we stood for arnd 4 hours, with only plain water to keep us going. HAHA. but actually, i rather enjoyed it when the parade started. i see a lot of small kids, WOO! i see very enthu japenese in their traditional costume, WOO! i loved the drums thingy esp, same as huifen. (:

and i got a goody bag from the thing too! (: and so i got this lousy pink tote, but nvm, it'd do cos i think the design on it is super nice! if you're watching the live telecast later on this evening, watch out for those stupid volunteers who aren't enthu at all wearing pink shirts, lining the streets. the design on their shirts is NICE, and tht's the design on my tote.

fuck it, now.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

i know wanting's gna love me for this. (: