No one takes a bow
Friday, September 12, 2008

Norwegian Recycling IS TOTALLY WICKED.

he's the reason why i'm still up at 1.27 in the morning (& i don't mind) downloading all 18 tracks he has - they're effing good. His mash-ups are the best i've seen, and his No one takes a bow (mashup feat. rihanna's take a bow, alicia keys's no one and sarah mclachlan's song for a winter's night) is my current fav. :D he's damn talented!

check out: no one takes a bow

Simon says
Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Isn't it better when we were kids? every incident that induced sadness could be forgotten so easily - and we never had to keep thinking about how the heck we're gonna handle A, appease B, get over C, or screw D in the ultimate bitchy fashion.

At the end of the day, who walks away with more on their hands? i'm not sure if it's the one that wins, and for every battle valiantly fought (or not), somehow everyone loses something.

I don't know what i'm trying to get at, but it's late in the night and i'm getting crankier by the minute (haunted by the voices nagging at me to study), but i so, fucking hate weakness. that it secretly undermines everything we do, like how it clings no matter how hard anyone tries to shake it off.

Whoever said it wasn't painful?
But pain is that neccessary to catalyse our forgetting (mine & yours).
We can rule the world
Monday, September 08, 2008

We all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love

got the best (or not?) combination of silly illnesses: a sorethroat & a spankingbad flu. stocked myself with all the necessities wherever I go: strepsils, dequadin lozenges, panadol flu max pills & trusty tissues - you can never really go wrong. almost talked myself hoarse with guowei just now then his mum offered me some pills for flu. after i downed the pills i just keep hiccupping! the feeling's horrible my hiccupps suck my ribs in so much each time i think it might just collapse.

my packet of twisties sit so invitingly on my bedside table i think i might just be tempted ... and add another few kilos to my already impressive weight.

p/s. edited 9th Sep, regrettably I have succumbed and eaten the twisties, but ironically my throat has gotten better - now it's the stupid flu that's bugging me.

p/p/s i don't even know why i'm online i must go study! much love & luck to everyone study hard!
Time, time, time
Saturday, September 06, 2008

Shame, is five-fingered.

Like colouring the sky in with a crayon; there is no language for grief this big.

We hold each other, then, and when i feel brave enough I look back down at the husk that one held my youngest. He is right, after all. This is nothing but a shell. There is no energy to the lines of her face, there is a slack absence to her muscles. Under this skin they have stripped her of organs that will go to Kate and to other nameless, second-chance people.

I put my hand on Anna's chest as Brain, trembling, flips off the respirator. I rub her skin in small circles, as if this might make it easier. When the monitors flatline, I wait to see some change in her. And then I feel it, as her heart stops beating beneath my palm - that tiny loss of rhythm, that hollow calm, that utter loss.

-My Sister's Keeper, Jodi Picoult

Making this little green space private makes me feel as if I unconciously have excluded people out of my life - some important, some not so, others negligiable. I guess you can never have your cake and eat it, too. What is frighteningly scary is finding that I pass each day with apparent ease, and the old, what i thought was die-hard habits slowly becomes a seperate from me. It probably took a lot of convincing, but I'm so glad my body has become more and more attuned to the determination in my mind now.

i go. (:
A helpless tendency
Thursday, September 04, 2008

(Faults are thick) Where love lies thin

Studying at jmin's last afternoon-night, and then stayover at mine. For a first time in a long while really got down to studying, but still got those open the book and snap! i'm sleepy~ feeling. But okay in the event where time is scarce and my wants = acing my subjs, i have to work hard even if opportunity cost means no (or minimal) sleep/play/shopping. A leaf with all our wishes, etc. Four of us let it set sail from jm's rooftop and it landed in.. the basketball court haha.

I haven't got much to blog about..

but let this be enough.

A fleeting moment, a grasp at your sleeve. Running footsteps, a childish giggle. Fingers entwined, one shot at forever.

How could i recognise you?