been a tiring two days at school,

and on friday when we go to LT 2 for our lecture i wanna (like shunjie said) sit far far away from where i dekited but it couldn't have bee possible anyway 'cause i dekited on the teacher's table.

& it still feels best to be in the squad, just like it always does.





POP'07, finally over.

the days started with us falling in at 8am in the morning to do parade rehearsals and w most of us only sleeping 2 -3 hours the previous night. we did the marchpast over and over again, only trying to achieve the best effect 'cause it was really the last time we were marching together as a squad.

when the real parade really came, it was so.. so much pride and so much memories. and then you see some of us getting our ranks and getting promoted and all the seniors being so proud of all of us and thanking us for our efforts.. and us trying to execute the best drill we cld possibly do 'cause it was really really the last time we stand in front of the corp as one body, as one squad, as a team of brothers and sisters.

the marchpast was the best, yi'an was crying already and it was like the marchpast represented us really having been in the corp for 4 years and them appreciating our service and us being with each other for so many many days.

we starting marching around the track, cheering our hearts out and even then i wasn't crying. i was sad, but no tears came up, not until we reached the basketball court and i saw wanting and she was crying and we started hugging and all the tears just flowed out. esp hongsheng i was damn taken back when i saw him crying so hard.

performance night didn't go as well and the std3s were really demoralised and during the sharing session we had so much fun interacting w each other. it was really quite suprising 'cause it was suddenly so easy to talk to them, and we don't have to stand in front of them as instructors anymore but as friends who offer advice. std3s are such a cute bunch it was really really regretting that we didn't spend enough time with them.

we didn't sleep for the whole night, and instead spent time talking with our smcs, teams, respective wings and finally at around 3am all of us sat down and talked to mdm qp, sheryl, yanqi, aiping, sir cheehoe, kristian, junxiang and junyang. the talk was really long but it was such a happy thing to do. shared quite a bit with sir junyang and it was really quite funny, yahui being huggable and all that! :D

aft they left that's when the emo period started coming and we started crying & the rest kept going haiya whats there to cry about and was so bo chap, and an hour later those who said that were crying like siao also. the worst was really in the morning when all of us really didn't want to leave each other, and those who didn't want to sign on had to return all the uniform accessories, and i had to part with my staff sgt rank i only got to keep for a few hours.

we gathered at the grandstand, and we just all sat there, quiet and crying, and when everyone came we had group hugs and individual hugs with everyone.. it was really really really the best.

i really lost track of how many times i cried just thinking that we won't be ever doing a PT together again, that we won't be taking our cadets anymore, that even if me and tiffny was in the same class we won't be in the same cca either.

i don't know which other 21 people would come for routine trainings weekly and do circuit pumpings with me when we all cld have been enjoying ourselves outside.

i really really love std4'07. i really really love my squad.

i really really love hongsheng samuel shunjie weisong manching yujia huiwen zhiying daphne jocelyn qingyi yahui huaxin elvina xinyi cheryl tiffany huifen wanting adelyn mian mian.
that's tmrw, thats the last day we're officially together as a squad, last time we're wearing the uniform before we return all our accessories, last time we're marching together as a squad.

i'm very excited. we're actually spending the night together! <3

WO AI NI MEN!
somebody should just slap me away from this stupid dumb computer table 'cause i have this many things to do:

1. study for hamlet test
2. finish writing cadet records
3. cut squad photos
4. learn our squad song
5. think of how to decorate the gift
6. finish maths
7. plan something else
8. letters to cadets

okay seems very little right but MY FOOT i only got one night and feeling like i can sleep now on the spot doesn't make matters any better. ):

2 more days to POP.. really things have been so hectic and busy there isn't even time to feel emo. and saturday is really coming super super fast its like lessons tmr, then POP prep and go home and finish last minute stuff prepare uniform boots and everything's gotta be the best 'cause its POP and possibly my last time wearing the uniform.

i <3 std4s!
kind of felt sorry for them 'cause the man looked like he wasn't young and he practically had to stand there like a statue most of the time until someone donated 2bucks. i wanted to donate actly but i didn't have the sapre money. the woman's v pretty!

look! my phone now for sale. ): parting with my one month baby. haha so lucky i managed to sell it at quite a okay price considering my super cool st john badge made two small holes in the phone's interface only just two days ago.

now i'm still missing my led screen that lights up so prettily in the dark ): , sony ericsson's activity menu, and those themes i made myself but i'd get over it i promise!

why the hell am i getting so emotional over a phone? tuhh. haha.

i've gotta run for maths test! :x lucks.