Didn't really want to blog but thought i'd post this anyway 'cause i saved it as a draft. Below: lyrics from corrinne may's Beautiful Seed. Super like the line i highlighted in red. She's another singer who's strangely therapeutic, like you know you can listen to her songs and start appreciating everything around you cause her songs abt people/life are so real.

Glad i survived Wednesday this week. Albeit having 2 tests on that day it wasn't the entire reason why i dreaded it; for the whole of stupid July every wednesday has been a torture, a pain to go through. Something always happens w/o fail.

But thankgod very much, yesterday was fine. :D
August better be better.

Beautiful Seed

She's a pastor's daughter
She's only sixteen
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small "Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby



The smiles of the little ones, the most untainted.
Like how the sides of their mouths curl up and reaches into your heart,
Wash you clean of all the wrongs, of all the impurities
That has slowly crept into our once,
Our once untainted hearts

Time alone has allowed space for thinking, and chances to even out gaps that required filling. A ride on the bus, earphones in your ear, soothing voices streaming into your mind.

As you stumble & fall, take heart in knowing someone's just as willing to pull you by the waist, pull you to safety.

Let others keep up with you

What has the magical power to heal, you shall never find.

HAPPY FIRST POP ANNIVERSARY! :D

ran 4.4 today. :D

was stupid enough at first to go run in fbts when the weather was freezing b/c of the rain. thought i could stand the cold at first so i tried running one round and my lips started turning purple so i had to run home and change into trackpants. wasted a lot of time but in the end i ran my 3.3 quite fast i think the weather was too good for running. even when you sweat you barely feel the heat radiating from yr own body b/c of the weather!

there was a couple sitting at the 293 bus stop but they were like i don't know saying all the sweet nothings to each other and not waiting for the bus at all so i kept passing them by when i finish each round & each time i run past the girl will be like make the "TSKKKK" sound. i wanted to slap her! you keep sitting there doing your disgusting things then i keep running by my fault?! during my 4th time passing them by i glared at her when she tsked me again but after the glare i quickly took off to do my cooling down before her boyfriend could maybe punch me. HAHA.

when the wind caresses your face
& whispers in your ear
"show me what you got, show me what you got"
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hello,
hello mustard bastard.

crude, yes. but i was afraid a lighter word wouldn't be enough.

sorry i couldn't handle this with more tact, but when i'm done believing, all i want to do is let you know: you live your own life. only thing i regret is to have trusted you, to have thought you were different, but turns out you're all the same. maybe even worse.

you're a jerk, through and through. it was a rude awakening, finding that out.

you can say i am bitchy, or anything you like. You don't know how it feels, you don't have the slightest idea. all you are is too caught up in yourself, too busy doing whatever it is you're doing.

i'd never look back again. this time i say it and mean it.

thought i might just throw this in;
good luck with your messed up life.